I feel myself coming back into existence. I have redirected my focus back on myself. It's beyond difficult to sit and fester in toxic thoughts without trying to reach out in some way, and it's particularly difficult to reach out in healthy ways when I'm not feeling strong to begin with. I wanted more than anything to escape my environment last night, but I found solace in my friends and within myself from home instead. Earlier in the day yesterday, I was unable to tap into solace within myself. It's time to refocus my energy. I do not and will not have a favorite person other than myself. Nobody will fill the void and I must continue to make strides to stop seeking to fill it, as the void can never be filled, but must be confronted head on.