Easy Road To Heartbreak(Namjin)
Scenario: in which Rap Monster and Suga have been spending excessive time in the studio together and Seokjin gets concerned and insecure.
Word Count : 834
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Warnings: Member x Member, same-sex romance, Seokjin being hella cute and Namjoon being hella cold.
In what took Rap monster days to finish, he could finish in hours with Min Suga by his side. Songs that were just ideas in Namjoon’s mind could actually become chart toppers with help from the good ol’ Agust D.
Suga and Rapmon planned to just bang out the lyrics and then head to their dorm rooms for some much needed R&R, of course that was before they brought out the Soju and before Rap Monster realized he hadn’t touched his boyfriend, Seokjin, in a few weeks now. Seokjin always managed to seem perfect to Namjoon. He cooked, he cleaned, he studied, he worked, and he even was successful in handling the devilish maknae line. What was it Seokjin couldn’t do? Perhaps...keep Namjoon faithful on nights like this, when it was cold outside but the discarded shot glasses still had Namjoon warm in the cheeks and Yoongi was rapping his line with just oh so beauteous lips? Or maybe...just maybe...that was more Namjoon’s situation to deal with, Namjoon’s guilt to live with. And please do keep in mind that Namjoon loves Jin more than anything else in this world, but exhaustion, alcohol and sin all happened to be things on Rap Monsters agenda today and it just seemed too tiring not to kiss Suga.
Not to kiss Suga...
That’s all Seokjin had wished Namjoon had done when he peeked into the studio a little after one A.M. and with a bag of fish cakes in his hand because he knew that editing always seemed to work up his boyfriend’s appetite. But now, he watched his boyfriend’s lips breathlessly disconnect from the other rapper’s in the room, cheeks rosy and Suga’s face not visible from the angle in which Seokjin stood.
Seokjin couldn’t remember what had happened with the fish cakes, since they were certainly not in his hand when he ran out of the building. He could only recall the feeling of tears on his cheeks and the fact that even though he knew he was somewhere in Gangnam when he finally focused on his location, he didn’t have the slightest idea on how to get home.
Seokjin spent the night walking around Seoul and hoping that the reason his phone wasn’t ringing was because Namjoon had just forgotten his phone at the dorms earlier that day when he left to the studio with Yoongi.
Namjoon spent the night in his bed at the dorms, staring up at the ceiling and wondering why he kissed Yoongi and why he couldn’t get himself to regret the kiss. Even with the alcohol in his system, pushing him towards the edge of exhaustion, Namjoon still found it hard to sleep with Jin next to him. Jin was always so cold to the touch and Namjoon loved that since he felt like the quilts suffocated him at night.
Taehyung was the first to notice Seokjin’s absence at breakfast. Mostly due to the absence of the breakfast itself. As soon as the question left his mouth, Rap Monster came through the door with McDonald’s in hand and a desperate plea for Tae to just keep quiet.
“Kamsamnida for the food, hyung...but where is Seokjin eomma? We all have to eat together!”
This time it was Yoongi who shushed him by shoving a hot cake in his mouth, the rest of breakfast proceeded with grave like silence. Even Jimin and Hoseok seemed to know better than to joke, both instead just stared uneasily at their leader who seemed to be entranced by the syrup.
Their schedule didn’t begin until One that afternoon, but once breakfast ended no one seemed to have the joy and energy to mess around. They all sat in the living room staring blankly at the screen and unsaid, unanswered, questions buzzed with tension in the air.
Seokjin returned to the dorm at Noon, clothes dirtied, smelling of beer, and light stubble on his cheeks. Jungkook couldn’t hold in his enthusiastic shout of “Jin- hyung!” Namjoon had retreated to his room after breakfast and at the shout of his boyfriend’s name, he exited like an easily freighted deer. Once his eyes landed upon his distraught jagiya, he took prideful leaps towards him.
Seokjin didn’t realize that Rap monster’s arms were around him until he started crying. He didn't realize he was crying until he saw a tear land on Namjoon’s neck. He didn’t realize how angry and sad he was until he locked eyes with Yoongi and he didn’t realize he locked eyes with Yoongi’s until Yoongi started crying himself.
But Seokjin stood there in Rap Monster’s arms. He stood there for god knows how long and the only thing circling in his mind was that he couldn’t take this right now and he couldn’t do this right now. So with a reluctant determination, Seokjin wrapped his arms around Namjoon too and decided to forget because forgetting was a lot easier than remembering and then working towards forgiveness and however long that would take. Forgetting was easier.
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