Karadox - After Kara's lose her memory. "I'm afraid of feeling that pain again" "No matter what you chose. I will still be here for you"
Kara knows, she knows that if or when she remembers, all that pain she’s been free of will come rushing in. And she doesn’t know if she wants to remember her past as Kara Zor El.
She much rather be Kara Danvers, a CatCo reporter. Alex’s sister, and a caring friend to everyone. That’s the person she rather be, not Kara Zor El of Krytron. Of a destroyed planet.
If she goes to Alex or anyone else, they’ll tell her that it’s apart of her, that she shouldn’t be afraid to remember. But they won’t understand the pain of losing your own race, of a whole planet you’ve spent 13 years on.
So she brings her worries to Querl, someone she knows might understand her better then her friends. Because he won’t judge her for not wanting to remember. Because she knows that there’s a part of him that wishes he could forget what his ancestors have done.
“Hey, are you okay?” Querl asks bring Kara out of her thoughts. Currently, they were cuddling on the couch with a movie play, but neither of them seemed to be paying attention.
“Not really,” Kara whispers, staring at her hands. Querl weaves his hand into hers and squeezes them. Silently telling her he’s listening. “It’s just...I’m afraid feeling that pain again. And I know that it’s helped me grow as a person but I don’t think I can do again. Not this time, not when I know what it feels like to be free of it.”
Querl’s eyes soften as his heart breaks a little for Kara. “Well, no matter what you chose. I will still be here for you.”
“Thanks Querl,” she said and leans her head on his shoulder.
Maybe one day she will change her mind about wanting to remember. But right now, all Kara wants is to Kara Danvers and Querl will stick around. Because it’s Kara he loves, not Danvers and not Zor El, just Kara.