Update: he posted a snap with some girl last night at 1 am. She could be a friend. She could be a tinder hook up. Either way he knew I would see that on his snap. He knew it would hurt. That is the single thing I do not ever stand for. I will not sit here with hope in my heart that we could try again and have you hurt me. I am worth more than that and I deserve a hell of a lot more that what you've done to me. So peace out. Have a nice life with your girls ✌🏻 Also I unfollowed him on all social networking and may or may not have contacted my ex from high school 🤷🏻♀️
Less than 8 days till my therapy appt and let me just tell you it could not come soon enough. This is not who I am. This is not the way I act. And this is not how I want to treat him. AT. ALL.
In 2017 I want to stop letting my mental illness get me down. I want to let go and allow things to take their natural course instead of trying to control every little detail. I want to allow myself to love people with my entire heart instead of hiding bits and pieces of myself.