#szpd splitting

[hauntedselves]

sorry if this has been asked before or if its somewhere on your blog, but is "longing to spill your guts out (emotionally) to someone but getting physically sick when thinking about or actually doing it" a szpd thing? i think i understand how splitting w/ szpd works but i'm not sure if this is how it works???/?//?//?// sorry if this is worded weirdly ive also been super confused if i have npd szpd or if im just like this :p

i don't think this is exclusive to SzPD. this sounds like a fear of vulnerability. being uncomfortable with vulnerability - even while wanting it - isn't a symptom specific to any disorder; it's part of everything from PTSD, personality disorders, toxic masculinity, cultural norms of being emotionally distant...

is it something that people with SzPD could experience? absolutely! here are some posts about SzPD splitting:

my post about splitting in SzPD with charts (from Wheeler's thesis)

my post on splitting in SzPD, NPD & BPD

schizotaxic's post on SzPD, NPD & OCPD's 'superiority defense mechanism'

schizotaxic's post on splitting in SzPD

[crownedschizoid]

"The Empty Core" by Jeffery Seinfeld. direct quote.

[ The term schizoid refers to the splitting of the self. The schizoid individual complains of feeling isolated, disengaged, shut-out, unconnected, and apathetic. There is a consuming need for object dependence but attachment threatens the schizoid with the loss of self. The individual protects an insecure sense of self by emotional withdrawal and affective isolation. Unable to make emotionally meaningful commitments, the person often feels that life is futile and without purpose (Meissner 1988). Existential phenomenology describes the schizoid sense of identity as suffering ontological insecurity (Laing 1959). The schizoid frequently has few friends, is not involved with community or society in general, and may appear shy or eccentric. There may be paranoid features: sensitivity, guardedness, and suspiciousness (Meissner 1988).

The schizoid may also seem to be sociable and involved in relationships. However, he is frequently playing a role and not fully involved, unconsciously disowning this role (Fairbairn 1940). Winnicott (1960) described the false-self system. ]

[hauntedselves]

Splitting and Roles in SzPD

From Zachary Wheeler, Treatment of Schizoid Personality [dissertation] (2013)

See also: 'The Schizoid Dilemma', 'Is there a difference between SzPD & BPD splits, and do all PDs have splits?', 'Splitting in PDs'