#t guy

[feral-trans-faerieboy]

shark week came early n i’m in the DEEP dysphoric ocean of feels, lads

[ratman101]

I want to live in black and white so fucking bad.

Tried to shape my face fuzz. It was having none of it.

[trans-sexxxual]

throughly enjoying my new bullet🥰

[pomade]

t guy swag protecting from radiation

[walkingwhiletrans-blog]

I'm so into voguing right now

Also having to use a gender neutral bathroom because I don't fit in either the ladies or the mens. Now everyone knows I'm a dude, but I'm not a "real dude" yet am I. I wouldn't even fucking dream of using the mens yet. What if there's no gender neutral bathroom? Well, just fucking piss yourself mate.

I hate this. Goddddddd I really hate this. I just wish it wasn't happening to me. Like it's all great to laugh and joke about it and be like "I have all the privilege of a straight white man now kek" but I don't. I am one of them, but not one of them, with no idea where I really belong. I'm no longer welcome in the safe lesbian spaces I previously inhabited (obviously, I'm not a lesbian, but I'm still sad about it cause it was nice being part of that community and yall are just the coolest people) I'm not welcome in the womens spaces I was welcome in before (obviously, same again, don't belong there, but sad about it), I don't feel comfortable in male spaces because other men make me feel uncomfortable, I don't pass enough to be seen as a man and there will always be people who will never, ever recognise me as such. Not even when I have a full on fucking Santa beard. I'll always be "that guy who used to be a woman" rather than just "that guy".

So I'm just stuck, floating between gender identities and safe spaces with no idea where to hang my hat, feeling like a big fraud and like a diluted version of a man. I don't have any T guy friends to talk to or hang out with. Guys, is this fucking normal? Is it normal to be like, so so buzzing that you've finally figured it all out, then when you're waiting.. Waiting for that appointment letter to come through, to be so frustrated and pissed off and fucking "why me?" about it? Am I being a whiny little shit or is this truly so fucking unfair and such fucking bullshit? Who would fucking WANT this? Who would fucking CHOOSE to be this way? This fucking blows.