✮⋆˙ next mistake | han taesan series ✦ 4
PAIR taesan x fem!reader
GENRE exes to lovers au, university au, bantering, mutual pining but they're oblivious </3
FEAT illit + riize
SYNOPSIS it had been a year since you and taesan had broken up. despite having no contact since separating you couldn’t get him out of your head. you promised yourself that you’d never go back to your ex, but after one drunken night, you can’t seem to stop running into taesan again. falling for him again better not be your next mistake… right?
WC chapter 4 // 2.3k
WARNINGS cursing, SLIGHTLY SUGGESTIVE ??? heh
notes HELLLOOOOO part four yay! thank you so much again for allll the love for this series it’s been sm fun to write!!!!! as always likes and reblogs are always appreciated muahmuahhh <3
read part three here! MASTERLIST
now playing Soft Spot by keshi
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"Goodnight," Taesan said.
You were walking in, but then halted abruptly, turning back toward him like you'd forgotten something important.
"Taesan, your clothes are drenched, come inside and change,"
He opened his mouth to protest, but you were already tugging him forward. Fingers warm around his wrist, you pulled him into your apartment like you'd done a hundred times before.
The two of you entered your apartment which was completely dark.
"Is everyone asleep? It's okay, really," Taesan said, already knowing he shouldn't be here.
"No one's home right now," you replied. "It's just us, so don't worry."
That's worse Taesan thought.
His thoughts barely finished forming before you were dragging him down the hallway, straight into your room. You beelined for your closet, rummaging through clothes like this was normal, like his presence didn't mean anything at all.
"Here," you handed Taesan some of your more oversized clothes and you disappeared, leaving him alone in the room.
He was in your bedroom now, water still clinging to his hair as he pulled his shirt off. The lights still wouldn't turn on, but it didn't matter; everything felt familiar anyway. The layout. The air. The faint scent that was unmistakably you.
Then a knock. Soft, hesitant.
He turned just as the door opened.
"Why are the lights still off?" you muttered, fumbling around with the light switch.
"Is the power out? It wasn't turning on earlier" Taesan said.
"You're kidding," you said quietly, realization sinking in. "Whatever. Where are you, anyway...?"" you said, trying to feel for Taesan in the dark room.
Suddenly you bumped into a bare chest.
"Taesan?! Why aren't you wearing anything??"
"I was in the middle of it." he said hoarsely. "You came in out of nowhere,"
Before you could argue back, Taesan bumped into something in the room, causing him to stumble back —and you went with him.
"Ow" you hissed.
It was only then that Taesan realized you were sitting in his lap, your hands braced onto his shoulders.
"You really are blind aren't you" Taesan said, which earned him a punch on the arm.
"I can see prefectly fine! See your face is right here," you fought back, cupping the boy's face, trying to feel him through the dark.
Your fingers found his jaw, tracing the line of it, slow and curious. His breath hitched.
"Mhm," he murmured, barely there. "What else?"
"Your neck is here?" Your touch drifted down to his neck, and the pulse there, and Taesan's hands moved before he could stop them, settling at your waist like they belonged there.
"What else, Y/N?" he whispered, your name threading through his chest.
And you responded by leaning in, finding his lips with yours, sinking into him as deeply as you could.
The worst part was that Taesan responded immediately, kissing you back just as feverishly.
Taesan pulled away for a second, wanting to take a look at you, just now seeing how you'd changed into your sleep shorts and a thin tank top.
His throat went dry.
You chuckled as if you'd read his mind, now grabbing his face to kiss him again.
The kiss wasn't rushed. It wasn't clumsy. It felt devastatingly right, soft at first, then deeper, like Taesan was trying to remember something he'd never forgotten.
Taesan's lips trailed down to your neck and his hands travelled under your top.
But he pulled back abruptly, his heart pounding against his chest.
"No bra?" he breathed —
—
Taesan jolted awake, breathing heavily.
He was alone in his room. Empty. Quiet. That wasn't real?
He groaned, raking a hand through his hair. There was no way he just had a dream about you.
Taesan glanced at his phone for a second, contemplating if he should text you, but shook his head.
It was late. And he shouldn't be doing this.
He knew he was crossing a line when he offered to walk you home and now that he was having dreams of you, he knew that it would be hard to go back to how the two of you were before.
Fuck.
This wasn't part of his plan at all.
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You were happier than usual today.
Maybe it was the good grade you got on that essay or a random girl complimenting your hair earlier,
or the fact that you were 99% sure Taesan still liked you.
You weren't being delusional this time you swear!! And being the loud mouth that you were, the very next morning that Taesan had walked you home, you decided to spill everything to your roommates.
They were a little disappointed at first that you were still thirsting over your ex, but as you kept telling them every detail they were warming up and rooting for the two of you.
"So he was the one that brought you home that night?" Yunah screamed.
"Did your entire skincare routine and basically tucked you into bed??" Minju shouted even louder.
"You freak, I bet you were glad you left the umbrella" Moka teased.
It felt great being able to finally share everything without holding in. The only worry in your mind was if Taesan truly felt the same as you. As confident as you were before, retelling your past interactions with Taesan did feel a bit inconsistent at times and you were scared that his intentions weren't the same as yours.
If you could, you'd get back together with Taesan in a heartbeat; after seeing him for so long, it felt so natural but still so heart fluttery to be this close to him again.
But did Taesan feel the same? He was never the type to lead people on or be one for casual relationships, but a lot could change over a year.
As confident as you were that Taesan still might like you, you had no way to prove it
and you absolutely were not going to ask him.
So you decided to subtly throw hints, a way of indirectly showing your feelings for him.
"Why do you look so happy today?" Taesan asked, laughing softly.
You shrugged, sitting next to him as the class hummed in the background. "The weather is nice today,"
You watched him nod slowly, a shy smile coming up to his face.
"Do you not like the weather today?" you asked.
"It's fine, just a little windy," Taesan's hand came up to your hair. "See?" he chuckled, picking up a small leaf.
Your smile dropped immeadiately, feeling embarrassed. You instantly turned around in your seat, looking away, while you heard Taesan laugh some more in the background.
Oh hell no. How am I supposed to flirt now??
You coughed awkwardly. "What are you doing later today?"
Okay. Definitely not subtle. Actually, nothing about you was ever subtle at all.
Taesan arched an eyebrow, looking at you. "Why do you ask?"
"Um, new coffee shop opened up... their seasonal menu looked good I wanted to check it out," You rambled, trying not to stutter.
"...Also it's next to that vinyl store you liked," you added shyly.
Taesan raised his eyebrows as if this was something he wasn't expecting to hear in the slightest. As if the idea was so outlandish and shouldn't happen at all...
"Actually, I'm not sure— "Lets go," the two of you said at the same time.
"Let's go" Taesan repeated. "I've been needing to go the the vinyl store again anyways,"
Oh. So it's not because you wanna see me but you want to run errands? Huh??
"Okay," you said a little quieter.
"And we can go to the coffee shop together first," Taesan added. "Are there any bakeries nearby? You'll probably cry if you don't have any pastries with you,"
Okay nevermind.
It was embarassing how quickly your eyes lit up. "I think so! Or they should be within walking distance? I can look them up later and text you?"
"Okay okay," Taesan let out a small laugh. "I can pick you up after your last class,"
"Nono, you don’t have to. I finish pretty late tonight so I can meet up with you instead!"
"Hmm, then come over to my place and we can head out together,"
Wow that's intimate. That might just be too much. Also had it always been so hot and stuffy in this class?
Too nervous to think, you just nodded to Taesan's words, and finally started listening to your professor (not that you learned much anyways)
After an excruciating hour, class finally ended. So what you were thinking about Taesan the whole time, you had a date to look forward to. Plus you weren't able to focus at all.
Your mind was buzzing with different thoughts. Would you have enough time to everything shower? Should you wear a new perfume or an old one that he liked? What does he even like now?
"Hey," Taesan's voice filled your ears. “Text me later, yeah?"
You nodded, way too eagerly. "I'll let you know when I'm done,"
"Okay, and be careful on your way, the weather's a bit unpredictable it seems," Taesan said as his hand came up to ruffle your hair.
You could've melted right there on the spot.
But you held your composure, just nodding back as you watched the boy leave.
You realized you should be mentally prepared for later today; if Taesan kept this up, you might just eat him alive.
You didn't register when and how he became so bold. It was weird. Han Taesan was making you feel weird lately. It seemed like everytime you were with him your face would get uncomfortably warm and your head would go blank. Maybe it was just you having a crush again but you swore no one had ever made you feel this way. It had to be unhealthy how fast your heart would race when you'd get close to him,
but it was possible you just liked Han Taesan too much.
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Taesan was having fun today.
He wasn't planning on teasing you this much but you were being too cute lately.
He really took the time you were dating for granted, because if he could, he would have grabbed your face and kissed you right in the middle of the lecture.
Well maybe not that specifically, (Taesan was way too shy to ever do that) but in that moment, all he wanted to do was just take your hand after class and run to an empty room or secret corridor on campus and pepper kisses all over your face.
You were the only one that could get him to act this way and you didn't even know it. Taesan didn't realize when he became so attached to you again, how much space you took in his mind.
Perhaps it was the moment he saw you again after so long?
"Drink some more water and sober up," Taesan tsked at the girl hugging him.
Wow. Y/N's passcode was still the same. What if I'd tried to barge in? He thought intrusively.
Taesan hated how everything in your apartment felt so familiar and how he practically knew where everything was.
Seeing your state, (which was completely gone by the way) he realized that you wouldn't be able to do anything by yourself at this point.
After slipping off your shoes, and kicking off his own, he picked you up, carrying you to your bathroom.
"Taesannn," you sang out as the boy placed you down on the bathroom counter.
He just shook his head as he fumbled around trying to find the headband you always wore when you washed your face.
"I want to kiss youuu,"
Taesan immediately froze, feeling a blush creep up his neck.
You did have a habit of being more affectionate when drunk but Taesan was not prepared for this at all.
With half-lidded eyes, you sloppily leaned forward, to which Taesan instictively put a hand on your waist, making sure you wouldn't fall.
That didn't stop you however; you puckered your lips, shamelessly trying to peck the boy in front of you, but Taesan just put his palm in front of your face, his hand meeting your lips instead.
"Hmm?" you frowned, looking up at an unamused Taesan.
"Y/N, you're drunk right now, you're gonna regret this when you wake up,"
"I won't regret it, I promiseee" you whined, but Taesan's face was stern.
He proceeded to dab a cotton pad with makeup remover on your face as gently as he could. You winced at the cold feeling at first, but just watched Taesan as he cupped your face, angling it towards him.
"You don't want to kiss me?" you tilted your head, trying to read the boy's face.
"It's not that... I just can't kiss you right now,"
Your eyes lit up, only selectively hearing Taesan's words, "Can we kiss later then?"
"Maybe,"
"Really?" You wrapped your arms around the boy.
Taesan poked your face with your moisturizer. "Actually, no comment,"
You continued to pester him for the remainder of the night, switching between clinging onto the boy and acting as if you were going to cry any second. Taesan endured it all, never once complaining, and going along with it every time.
It wasn't hard for you to go to bed; the second Taesan led you back to your room, you collapsed, already half asleep. He scolded you about sleeping in your going out clothes and how uncomfortable it'd be in the morning, but you were way too tired to change. (In the end, the two of you came to a compromise, with Taesan slipping an oversized tee over your shoulders).
You fell asleep instantly, and Taesan watched you, making sure not to leave until he saw your steady breathing. He contemplated writing a note, reminding you of your embarassing moments or maybe just to make sure you give him a text the next morning that you were feeling okay?
But who was he kidding.
Taesan wasn't your boyfriend anymore and as familiar as tonight felt, it was wrong to step in this far. He shook his head, forgetting about the note. You had a habit of forgetting most things after drinking too much, and Taesan was okay with it.
Maybe it would be easier to forget tonight knowing that you wouldn't remember a thing.
So with a sigh, Taesan got up, ready to leave your apartment. His headphones were still M.I.A, according to a text from Leehan, and he'd probably only get a couple hours of sleep at this point.
Taesan glanced at you one last time as his hand touched the doorknob.
Fuck it.
He came closer to you, and quickly placed a kiss on top of your forehead.
Taesan always kept his promises, especially when it came to you.
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