Summary: To end the night and start a birthday, you laid with Taesan on the truck bed to admire the stars. Something you did all the time as kids— as friends— now it’s different because you can finally call him yours, but this date gets a bit sensitive for the birthday boy
WC: 1.1K
Pairing: idolbf!taesan x non-idolgn!reader, established relationship, hashtag cringeness a bit but theyre sappy so who cares, brief mention of sickness, angst?, fluff, lmk if i forgot something! :)
Author's Note: i imagine this song as yellow and soft warm colors but my brain needs me to continue my pattern of colors for my fics so we will stick to blue okay i dont really give a gaf. anyway, sorry for the late taesan bday post, i actually just came up with this rn before posting because ive been so busy and im home alone which means its easier for me to lock in and lowkey work today was buns but it’s fine. sorry for this long ahh a/n. also help reqs are open!!
Now Playing: God Only Knows - The Beach Boys
It wasn’t always like this.
It wasn’t every day for the past 10 years where Taesan felt this weird pull towards you where everything reminded him of you, but the way the stars shun so bright tonight made everything he felt so surreal.
It was odd.
He remembers seeing you every day in school, around the neighborhood or even in each other’s houses and never even thinking twice about it. He only felt weird when other people would bring it up like it was some sort of alien invasion situation.
But god.
The way your eyelashes batted as you smiled at each constellation. Or how bright you seemed to shine as you began info dumping on him about the history of the stars and space. Even going as far as telling him what the sky above everyone looked like the day he was born.
God, if only they knew what they meant to me..
“You know, I hope we become stars when we die,”
He broke the silence— trying to distract himself from continuing to stare at you— he looked straight ahead to the woods behind your house. “I heard we all have stardust in our bodies, so I hope when it’s my time, I can be with all the stars. Hopefully, you’ll find me there,” He smiled softly before busting out in a forceful laugh.
“Pfft, isn’t that cheesy?” All these years of knowing him and looking through his thick walls, you knew deep down he meant what he said. “Yeah, real greasy of you, Han Taesan!” But either way, you went along with it because you knew he needed some sort of seriousness in this moment.
“You know, I really appreciate you. All these fans, busy schedules, and cameras being on what feels like 24/7 is hectic, but when I’m with you, I feel like I can actually relax. You see me as a human! Not an artist. Thanks..” He mumbled. “I’m surprised you haven’t left me,” another soft, somewhat pathetic chuckle escapes his lips into the dark night.
“Life just continues.. I left you to be an idol and you’re still here!” He shakes his head as if he disagreed with your decision.
“What would I do without you being here?” He almost wants to ask you himself but holds back like always.
“Oh Dongmin, you act like I’m easy to tear away from. You, my friend, are lucky I'm so glued to you, you know!” You joke trying to light up the mood.
You guys have been laying on the bed of his dad’s truck for a few hours now. It’s 2AM, you congratulated him on his 22nd trip around the sun, and didn’t want him to be so sad on a day he should be feeling excited.
“But I did. I left you. I pretty much risked our friendship for my selfish gain. And for what? I didn’t make any friends and I debuted into a world where I’m away from you so much..”
“Dongmin,” His name left your lips softer than intended but you knew he needed it.
You held his hand, sat up and faced him. You searched for his other hand and stared him into his eyes as if making eye contact meant losing him again.
Because that’s what his training felt like— losing touch of him and what the friendship meant to you.
Yes it hurt. No you didn’t want him to know because he already felt guilty as is.
“It’s true you training was a bit hard for me to handle, but it seriously was the best outcome we had been dreaming of! How can you expect us to go from seeing each other every day to rarely texting to be an easy process?” You let out a soft laugh which lightens his mood just enough to smile at you a bit.
“I’m beyond grateful you went to train because it means I get to see you happily living your dreams with your bestest of friends!” You held out a hand to gently stroke his face. His eyes shining brighter than any star that was out tonight.
“But you’re not there..” His eyes shun brighter now due to his tears. His bottom lip quivering as he looks down at your hand holding his for dear life.
“Because I’ll be home, waiting for you, just like when we were in school.”
Softly wiping his tears away and replacing the wet streaks with kisses filled with the soft, accepting love he needed years ago as a teenager.
Almost immediately, Taesan’s hands were exploring your body. Wrapping your arms around him, one hand holding your face while the other was holding your hand, and smashing his lips onto yours. It was intimate. He craved you but he was so gentle. Wanting nothing more than to express his gratitude for you through his lips.
If we were being honest, he wanted to get into your skin. He wanted to hold you forever.
He wanted you two to be stardust in the sky together. Burning hotter than the summer day you guys spent together as kids.
His kiss was full of sweet memories. Thinking back on the day he got his acceptance letter from the company. How he skipped out on telling his family and running straight to your house in the middle of the cold winter night.
His hands begged for yours.
Like the night he held your hand when you rushed to his house after he declined your call.
His sister had gotten dangerously sick. And because you called all the time, you knew him declining your call meant something serious. Once you made it to his house, his eyes were as red and puffy as ever. He broke down even more when he saw you once the door was open. You hugged him and held his hand as you guided him upstairs back to his room.
His house was so cold that night. His parents and younger brother were at the hospital to be by her side. But it was too much for him. He had already missed a week of school. To make things worse, it was when everyone was preparing for finals.
The second you held his hand to go upstairs, he gripped it and never let go.
And now?
You didn’t want to let go of him.
He resembled glass far too much right now.
Regret eating him up right in front of you. It was embarrassing to say the least.
“Han Dongmin, I will love you longer than the oldest star.. And stronger than any Transient Cosmic Explosion..” You both giggled in between kisses.
“Yeah?” He chuckled as he bit your bottom lip. “Well, I’d say, I love you stronger than Sustained Cosmic Engines because they last longer..” This was just too romantic that you both broke out into laughter.
“Just because it’s your birthday, I’ll you win this one, Han.” You pointed at him like you were scolding him. “Happy birthday, my love.”
⋮ ⌗ ┆synopsis: han taesan, a regular office worker, visits your ramen shop daily for a hot, comforting bowl of ramen. but what if ramen isn't the only reason why he keeps coming back?
⋮ ⌗ ┆author's note: sorry I haven't been posting fics in ages.. I had a writing burn out for a while and can't seem to clear the drafts I have TT. i'm actually writing this on the day of taesan's birthday and this story is for that reason, happy birthday taesann!! it is very short so I do apologize but i've been wanting to write a fic with the recent boomboom concept photos (at first it was going to be a 'can this love be translated' au but maybe i'll write that another time ><) anyways, I hope you enjoy this fic mwahmwah
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dear diary,
everyday, he comes in at the same time. his buttonup shirt crumpled, his hair disheveled, his eyebags prominent. and everyday, he orders the same ramen from me. a tonkotsu ramen with an extra egg. hot tea if he feels like it. and i'll watch him eat, not in a creepy way but to see if he's satisfied. if he is, he'll let out a soft groan with furrowed eyebrows. if he isn't.. well he hasn't been unsatisfied before. and i take pride in that knowledge. sometimes he'll talk to me. just some small talk. he ask if a lot of people visit. i say not really. i ask if he's doing okay. he says yes, but the look on his face says otherwise. sometimes i'll crack a small joke and he'll laugh. his smile is pretty, it looks like it can light up the whole world. his eyes under the dim lights twinkle, it's mesmerising. i want to see it up close, like a moth drawn to a flame. his skin looks soft to the touch and his hair no matter how disheveled it looks, makes me want to comb my fingers through them. he'll tease me after my joke. maybe my face goes obviously red because sometimes he pokes my cheek while chuckling. his laughter is like honey, sweet to soul and healing to the bones, I would love to hear it all the time. oh dear diary, you ought to know his name. his name is han taesan. and i really, really like him.
- l/n y/n
꒰ 🍜 ꒱ؘ ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟmore below the cut
it was a rainy day, you sit inside the shop fiddling with your apron. it's another quiet day in the town, not many customers and not many orders. you sit alone with your thoughts, which is mostly about han taesan. you've been thinking about him a lot recently after you managed to tell yourself you actually do like him. you stare at the clock, he's an hour late. he usually comes in at 7pm but it's now 8. you should close the shop and head home but the thought of him maybe coming here, realizing it's close and not having food for the night makes you wait. you tell yourself it's worth it. he's worth it.
as the minutes tick past, you find yourself slouching more and more down on the table until your eyes flutter close. maybe 10 minutes had passed, or maybe an hour did but when you open your eyes, a suit jacket is wrapped around you and the smell of ramen wafts through the air. you don't process it until five seconds later. you stand up abruptly to see han taesan in the kitchen making his own ramen.
"good morning." he greets, a scoff escaping his lips. "you could've woken me up you know." you rub your eyes as you walk towards him. he shrugs as he puts the noodles to a boil, "you were asleep and it's past your closing time." you don't say anything but watch the noodles boil.
"thank you." he mumbles under his breath as you look up at him in confusion. "for waiting for me…" he continues. your cheeks turn red immediately, "no-nonsense! who says I was waiting for you." you immediately turn away from him. taesan chuckles under his breath, "hah yea. sorry I assumed."
after a moment of silence, you broke it softly, "so..why did you come so late?"
taesan sighs softly, a look of vulnerability on his face. "my boss asked me to work overtime. and then it started raining once I left the office so I had to wait until it let up into a drizzle." "you could've just went home instead." you mutter.
"and not be able to see you?" taesan looks at you with those stupid entrancing eyes of his. "you'll live." you shot back before avoiding eye contact. he simply laughs.
once the noodles are done, he puts it all together and begins to slurp up the noodles. he lets out a soft groan and his eyebrows are furrowed. cute… you can't help but think.
after he's done, he washes his own bowl and helps you close up the shop. the rain has stopped and all that's left is a cooling night. "let me walk you home." he asks softly but it sounds more like an order. you nod, besides a few extra minutes with him sounds like heaven.
and as you walk, the silence between the two of you is both comforting and soothing. you stare at the stars shining above you, twinkling against the dark backdrop of the sky. "the moon is pretty today isn't it?" taesan asks. you nod, "yeah.. it is."
"you know, today's my birthday." you immediately freeze in your steps, "it is?" he nods in response, "august 10th." "you should've told me that earlier! I wouldn't have charged you for your ramen-" he rolls his eyes. "it's fine.." "I don't have a present for you either-" "I don't need one from you.."
"but come on. it is your birthday, at least let me-" you scramble about as you take out your wallet from your bag. "I just want one thing from you, y/n" you nod in anticipation. his hand reaches out for yours. you nearly have a panic attack then and there. his hands are as soft as you imagined. his fingers intertwine and interlock with yours. it feels grounding. and reassuring. "this is all I want." he smiles softly.
and under the dim streetlight and shining stars and moon, you nearly tell him that you like him.. that you're infatuated with him.. but thank the heavens that he continued walking. and as the two of you continued to walk, you came to the realization that maybe you don't want this night to end. maybe you don't want to let go of his hand. maybe, just maybe, you want more days like this.
you arrive outside your house. the two of you reluctantly let go. how you wish you had rewinding time superhero capabilities.
"get home safe.." you muttered and he nodded in return. "happy birthday." you continue.
he stands there in silence before reaching into his pocket and handing you a piece of paper. you accept it in curiosity. "when you enter your house.. I want you to make sure you can't see me anymore, that I've walked home and then you can open the paper and read it."
you nod slowly and he nudges you to go into your house. and so you do.
you stand at the window, watching him get further and further away from your house until he can no longer be seen. you open the paper with a bated breath and a racing heart.
꒰ 🍜 ꒱ؘ ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ
dear y/n,
everyday, I come in at the same time. your apron ironed and neat, your hair under the head wrap still tidy, your face glowing. and everyday, you greet me with a cheerful voice as I place my messenger bag on the entrance rack out of habit. and i'll watch you make my food, not in a creepy way but to see if that day was a good day. if it was, you'll hum softly with a bounce in your step. if it wasn't.. well I haven't noticed anything, you always seem to be in a good mood. and I take comfort in that knowledge. sometimes i'll talk to you. just some small talk. i ask if a lot of people visit. you say not really. you ask if I'm doing okay. I say yes, because how could I possibly tell you I hate my job and the only thing I look forward to at the end of the day isn't ramen but you? sometimes you'll crack a small joke, it's not funny but i'll laugh anyways. because you'll smile. and your smile is pretty. it's hypnotizing that even if a thousand people are smiling at me, i'll only want to find yours. your eyes under the dim lights sparkle. its captivating to say the least. I want to see it up close, like a bee drawn to honey. your skin looks soft to the touch and your neat and tidy hair, makes me want to ruffle it up. i'll tease you after you say your joke and your face goes extremely red, it's cute how flustered you get that i can't help but poke your cheek while I chuckle. your laughter is like sunlight, warm to the heart and healing to the spirit, i would love to hear it all the time. so dear l/n y/n, i really, really like you. and if you feel the same way.. catch me if you can.
- han taesan
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the paper drops to the ground as soon as you finish reading it. you sprint out the door, you run as fast as your legs can take you. even if you run out of breath halfway and even as the stitches cramp the side of your stomach, you run until you finally see him beneath the dim streetlight, you slow down and your feet comes to a halt.
"y/n-" "i like you!" the words come out before you can stop them. you take another breath, trying to steady yourself. "i really, really like you, han taesan!" your voice echoes through the quiet street. taesan stands completely still. for a moment, he doesn't say anything. he just stares at you, his eyes wide as if he can't quite believe what he's hearing. then, slowly, a smile creeps onto his lips. the same smile you've watched from behind the counter so many times. only this time, it's meant for you. "i really, really like you too, l/n y/n."
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Warning!! : MNDIIIII!!! SoftDomTaesan x switchyReader , smoking!, car sex ! , p in v , unprotected (DONT !!! ,DO BE SAFE ) , Cowgirl, making out, hickeys , dry humping , spanking , hair pulling,little bit of jealousy from both sides , pet names ( baby ,cutie ,babe,pretty) ,praise with a little degradation (slut) fwbs to ??? , slightly angsty if you squint (Toxicfwb? You let me know )
Synopsis: you and Taesan have been seeing each other as Friends with benefits for a while your friends don’t really like the dynamic but you just can’t seem to stay away and neither can he . Could you guys possibly be more ? .
WC: 1,909
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The car was humming lightly the faint sound of a random radio station playing the air smoky your eyes heavy drifting over to where Taesan is talking a slow long drag of the blunt you’re sharing .
“ what you staring at? cutie “ blowing the smoke out the side of his mouth a smirk making way to his face head tilting back against his seat , you stare at him fighting the urge to jump across your seat and kiss the smirk off his lips .
You and Taesan have been seeing each other for a couple months after a drunk hook up at mutual friends party your friends tell you that you should stop seeing him saying that it’s not going anywhere .That he might not be a good fit for you blah blah blah but it’s hard trying to when he’s ruined any chance of you even seeing anyone else that’s not him because all you can think about when your fucking them is his dumb beautiful face and the way he makes you feel.
“ your stupid face “ you joke taking the blunt out of hand taking a drag “yeah well this stupid face has you screaming loud and proud “he exclaimed a grin making way to his face again you slap his shoulder “ shush your going to ruin my high “ rolling your eyes with a fake annoyance a fake pout making way to your lips turning away from him looking out to the view of the dark parking lot your sitting in.
“oh come on look at me cutie you know it’s true” he teased his hand moving towards you’re face middle finger turing your chin towards him .
“Like you don’t have other girls shouting your name ” you murmur the time you saw him with a hickey that was most definitely not left by you flashing into both your minds “oh please you say that like you’re perfect“ he jokingly scolded .
He’s not wrong you aren’t perfect you have slept with other guys max like two people but those two times none of them did it just like him.
He got a good laugh when he was fucking you after one of them couldn’t make you cum His snarky comment replays in your head “ couldn’t fuck as you as I good as I do huh sweetheart” while he had dumb on his cock in less than ten minutes the dick was just that good .
You roll your eyes “yeah well at-least I don’t walk around with their marks on me for the whole world to see ” you sighed mocking annoyance trying to turn away if it wasn’t for his fingers holding onto your chin his grip tightened slight not hurting you but grounding you biting his bottom lip eyes drifting down to your very own lips.
His hand pull away “ come here “ he quietly whispers “ what ? “ your tone annoyed “ Don’t be like that baby come here “ he says teasingly reaching over tugging you slightly , you get up climbing over the console knees perched on either side oh his hips his hands finding home on you’re waist your weight pressing down onto him .
“ you know I only like fucking with you baby your the only girl who’s got my time the only girl I drop things for just to see a glimpse of your beautiful face" his thumbs rubbing slow circles on your waist “oh yeah ? not enough to go ahead and a other girl leave her ugly ass hickey on your neck” once again rolling your eyes throwing shade “ keep rolling your eyes and there going to get stuck like that”.
he sighs out shifting a little he can feel himself growing hard just from your attitude. “You’re enjoying this huh ?” You huffed you decide that right now is the perfect time to start grinding down on him and tease him he looks at you and smiles one hand griping your waist and the other coming up to play with your bottom lip
“Well yeah baby ,If you wanted me to fuck you in front of her you could always say that ” he whispers almost breathless while he grinds your hip down on to him hard.
A whine leaves your lips “very tempting” your say pulling your face closer to him lips ghosting over each others “but I’d rather have you all to myself” you mummer gripping his shoulders grinding down hard. His head hits the headrest “ fuck baby you feel so good “ he moans out “yeah better than her ?“ A lips brushing his .
He surges forward cupping your face pushing his lips with yours into a rough kiss hands wandering onto the back of nape pushing you even harder like you can get even closer than you are . Tongues sliding against each other the wet smacking of your conjoined lips fill the silence of the car .
“Fuck —I can’t hold back anymore “ he his hands sliding against your thighs playing with the hem of your sleep shorts “ I need to feel you baby ” you gasp hips rolling “ fuck yes Taesan please “ you whine out the sound of his name coming out in that Whiny Little voice of your Turing him on hard than before .
His hands rush to slide your shorts and panties off in one swift motion with your help of course the second you feel the rough material of his sweats against your cunt it’s over “ fuck baby your so wet for me” fingers sliding down to touch your clit. your hips buck up into his hand a whine leaving your lips “ I can’t wait any longer" he groans leaving his lips pushing up and sliding his sweats and boxers down cock slapping hard against his stomach .
You look at him his eyes hanging low and heavy pupils dilated you bit your lip and begin kiss his neck marking him “ mmh—yes pretty girl just like that” hands moving down your now bare ass landing a rough smack to your cheek you moan out “Fuck -harder“. hitting you again with more force .
Beginning to grind down on his cock your arousal making easy to glide against him his eyebrows furrow “ don’t tease baby “ hands moving down to to your waist lifting you like you weigh nothing you help angle his cock to your cunt and slide down loud Moans leaving both your lips
“ shit baby gripping me so tight” he stammers hips bucking up to your very own you help grinding down on him “ Fuck taesan — so good baby you feel—so fucking good “ groaning out your head falling to the crook of his neck A harsh slap lands on your ass again “ don’t get all sloppy on me baby we’re just getting started “ he growled out feet planting his thrust increasing .
the seat creaks beneath you, the windows fog from your breath, and he grips your hips so tightly you know they’ll have bruises in the morning "you're doing so well for me" he grunts next your ear your back arching into him his hips positioning into you a craze speed you can feel the knot in your stomach "Look at you," Taesan rasps out eyes drooping into a dazed look .
"Taking me so fucking good—shit baby " “ Taesan baby I’m so close! fuck — let me cum please! “ you choke out he grips your neck pulling you into his view “ beg for it “ he moans out biting his bottom lip . One of his hands coming down onto your clit delivering gentle strokes very different from his thrust he’s hitting that spot that had you seeing stars.
His hips snap into yours faster. You're moaning and writhing on top of him but he doesn’t stop he wants you to beg “ come on — fuck —baby, beg for it I know you wanna cum “ he grunts out “Please Taesan please — Fuck please let me cum I need to come please nhgmf- ” you cry out head falling back your nails digging into his clothed chest. “please baby let — please oh my god! -please I’ll be so good for you so good!—please!“ he chuckles a moan breaking it mid laugh “ Say your mine and you can cum “ .
Your eyes snap open gaze desperate his words fucking with your brain “Fuck yes — I’m yours all me is your—FUCK ” his hand delivers a smack on your ass Turing it’s it even redder that before the same hand gripping it afterwards “ that’s right this pussys all mines right baby none of those losers —Shit- can compare huh? ” he growls out “ Fuck— yes baby! none one can c-compare only you -only can make me cum I’m all your b-baby shit all yours” your sobbed throwing your head back he grins his lips finding your neck sucking hickeys onto it .
"you're doing so well for me baby go ahead cum for me” he purred against your neck littering small kisses . Your body flashes moaning out “fuck—fuck—,baby!” you moaned, thighs shaking toes curling. You topple over onto his chest but he continues moving into you , your body burning with overstimulation “taesan baby please I’m too sensitive—shittt!! “ he pistons harder “ I know baby ,I know your doing so good for me — my good fucking girl just a little more” he rasped out your back arching
"i'm gonna cum inside this perfect pussy" he growls out “Taesan shit!-fuck! I’m gonna cum again cum inside me please fuck!! ” you mewled. “fuck yes baby I’m cumming—cum with me” he whines out your climax hits with his . he buries himself deep and comes hard, groaning your name his cum shooting deep into your cunt . for a long moment, the only sound is both of you breathing heavily.
He keeps you in his lap to lazy to pull out so quickly the smells of sex filling the car he kisses your temple “ you did so well for me pretty so well “ a smile making way to your lips “ did I go to rough on you ? “ he ask a little bit of concern laced in his voice you stare up at him.
“you did perfect” you exhale pressing a soft lazy kiss to his lips , your chest heaving his fingers trailing down your back in smooth strokes he kisses back only to break the kiss with a smile stretched across his face only to kiss you again “ i like kissing you “ kissing the corner of your lip you sigh about move when his hands stop you
“ lets sit like this for a bit “ his voice coming out like honey “ fine but we have to talk later” you mutter he sighs squeezing your hip pressing a lazy kiss to your forehead “ we can worry about that later right now let me hold you”
You smile and nuzzle your head into the crook of his neck breathe evening out his hand stroking your back thinking about how to officially ask you to be his but he’ll save that for later .
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Authors note : this is slightly inspired by the song friends by chase Atlantic 🧎🏽♀️I was listening to them and Taesan was the first person to pop up in my head . also first smut let me know if was okay and also sorry if it was butt anyways BYE BYE thank you for reading :3
