#talking pears

[pudgeypear]

I’m really concerned there’s something wrong with me. I have been absolutely ravenous for two weeks, I expected it to end when my period did but it hasn’t. This never happened when I lost weight the first time, and I haven’t had an extreme deficit at all.

I’m waiting on results from the tests I had on Thursday and hopefully there will be an answer for this there...

[pudgeypear]

I weighed myself today and was 172.2lbs. I hope I break the 170’s soon... I’m so sick of how tight my work uniform is.

Last night I went to sleep pretty early since I have some post nasal drip going on, which makes my throat hurt when I breathe. I really hope this is just a regular cold since it’s the usual symptoms I get from them. Also hoping my mucus thickens up soon so I don’t have to deal with throat pain next week...

The pain in my throat is probably going to make it hard for me not to go over my calorie goal this weekend, since I’ll probably want to have something smooth going down all the time. Maybe I can convince myself water is the smooth thing and not ice cream!

[pudgeypear]

When you measure out the serving size before spreading it on the bread. 👍

[pudgeypear]

Left: 205lbs Right: 135.2lbs

I’ve been struggling to feel like I’ve actually lost weight recently, especially because of my lose skin, so after weighing myself today as reassurance I decided to take a progress photo as well. I’m very visual so actually seeing the change helps me a lot.

Does anyone else who’s lost weight also have trouble fully conceiving that you’re smaller now? What helps you?

[pudgeypear]

Prepared some rice, tofu, and veggies for lunch this week! I made four servings at roughly 350 calories per serving according to MyFitnessPal’s recipe calculation.

Recipe is pretty simple, took about 30-40 minutes:

1 block of extra firm tofu

1 tbsp vegan butter

4 cups of white rice

2 cups of mixed frozen vegetables

Soy sauce to taste (roughly 2 tbsp)

While waiting for the rice in the rice cooker I crumbled the tofu into a pan and cooked it in about a tbsp of vegan butter until any excess water had evaporated, stirring occasionally. Also added soy sauce for the tofu to absorb during this process. Once the tofu browns on one side I flipped the scramble so the other side to do the same. Set the tofu aside.

Once that was done I put the frozen veg in the same pan, a bit of water, and let them heat up. Once all the ice had melted I added some soy sauce and stirred until the vegetables soaked it up.

With the rice done I emptied the cooker into a big mixing bowl and added the tofu and veg and folded it all together.

[pudgeypear]

Super close to my first goal! I weighed in at 131.8 this morning. Just two pounds and I’ll assess whether to lose another 10 or start weight training.

[pudgeypear]

Weighed in this morning at 139lbs! Just 9 more to go until I assess where I’m at and decide whether or not to start maintaining. 🎉

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Nice Weight Loss Things

I can fit into my middle school swim team hoodie, it fits the same way it did when I got it, the swimsuit also still fits despite being too short for me now

My pajama pants that were tight on my hips when I bought them now have extra room, I’m so glad cuz they’re my warmest pajama pants and it’s still cold here

I can see my collar bones no matter how I position my shoulders, wasn’t expecting this and it’s a pleasant surprise, makes me feel dainty and pretty

Clothes I bought from Asian retailers that were too tight are beginning to fit me better, some already fit nicely, I’m so happy since I thought they didn’t fit due to my height

I generally feel more confident about and proud of my body, I didn’t realize before the extent of how much my fat was holding me back emotionally, this has encouraged me to put more effort into other ways of caring for myself