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When you heal, you stop being easily triggered. You stop believing everything someone does is an offense towards you because you’re no longer experiencing life through your wounds. You become easier to be around because the people you want a connection with don’t have to walk on eggshells and are no longer at the mercy of your insecurities.
My Kumbaya brain is usually in the mode of ‘why do we as a collective have to be so fearful of every single freakin thing? Just fear fear fear, divide divide divide’. And then my logical brain is like ‘because having people, places, and things to fear, is what keeps us alive. We need fear. And then, we’ve decided as a collective that we need fear so much, that we find all these creative ways to manufacture it through music, marketing, entertainment, politics. It’s nature. It’s how we’re wired.
There are natural and understandable things to fear but it’s the manufactured fear that is so flabbergasting because it’s manufactured. It keeps people controlled and easily manipulated.
If there’s one thing I’ve come to understand is that the time that you spend outside of your solitude, should be spent with people who are naturally joyous. They must know what it means to cultivate their own joy because anyone that doesn’t know how to do that will subconsciously try to make their lack of joy and happiness your responsibility.
Some are only excited to talk to you about themselves while others are excited to talk to you.
I appreciate that this reminder popped up today. I’ve been exploring and learning so much regarding different industries since last summer. It’s hard to believe a year has gone by. On the surface it doesn’t seem like all of my interests are cohesive but intuitively I know that they are. I can see how they’re all interlinked even it’s taking me a while to make them fit together harmoniously. I often felt like something was wrong with me because I couldn’t stick to one thing. I saw it as a form of deficiency and lack of focus when I was younger, and perhaps it was to a degree in the traditional classroom setting, but I’ve learned to accept the ‘scatteredness’ and see it as a gift in early adulthood when I started realizing the people that I actually admired and liked spending my time with reminded me of myself in that way. They didn’t confine themselves and they didn’t let other people confine them. They didn’t allow pessimism, obstacles or lack of external support to deter them from whatever vision they had in their mind. Learning on my own terms and at my own pace truly is fun.
Being water dominant + having a pisces ascendant puts aquarius in my 12th house which means I understand the collective or any individual I come into contact with on a subconscious level. I’m often seeing/sensing things from people that they are completely unaware that I’m picking up on. I know what it’s like to have covert enemies; people who role play as friends because it’s beneficial for their ego; They’ll depend on me for help or favors and receive it with no judgment or strings attached but shit talk behind my back, envy or despise me in secret. I sense betrayal long before it happens in my physical reality and I’ve learned to quickly cut the chords. I don’t have to “overstand” anyone’s pain just because I know it’s coming from a deeper place. If you repeatedly show signs of disloyalty, deuces.
I’m impressed that I can experience certain disappointments/obstacles and get through them without ever speaking to another soul about it. I know exactly what to tell myself and then I move forward. God made me self assured.
If you find yourself constantly repeating patterns of conflict, combat or chaos when dealing with people, then you are the common denominator. When you stop letting your painbody/ego lead the way, you naturally stop being unnecessarily triggered. You stop creating enemies out of everyone you come in contact with. You start to realize that the others you deem “enemies” are just mirroring back to you how you’ve been the ultimate enemy to yourself.
- TA
