#tellherium

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the sky and girlhood are both briefly pink // for a moment I thought I could taste it

[tellherium]

disparaging visitor symptom of a scouring vantage

submitted by: @aboveenough

sometimes, to clean is to abuse. take my aunt and her ocd. take my fingernails to my face. pick it, pick it 'til it bleeds, until there's nothing left to clean. i can rip myself apart with a single look in the mirror, or don't you ever wonder why i can't look myself in the eye? everything is beautiful until you get up close.

go on now, get close.

to get close is to visit, and sometimes, to visit is to pillage. take the mongols. take me, taking a piece of everyone i meet. sometimes even, taking things to keep. there must be a way to be let inside a mind and not take something out with me. a way to lay down instead of laying waste. one day i will make eye contact with the girl in the mirror and i won't try to hurt her. one day, she will get too close and i will not pull away. one day when she gets too close, i will want to stay.

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grip, bite // like a noose, like an animal

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You don't have to let me go, but you need to let go of me enough to let me let go of you.

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I didn't deserve it. I know that now. I knew it then. I guess it's partly my fault, too. Neither of us treated me like someone we loved.

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I don't want to forgive you and that's why I won't see you and also I don't want to

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I broke my own heart trying to love you

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I don't know how to remember you