#tengblue

[blaewen]

And btw it’s very fucking rude even years later to be like

Oh no I didn’t mean to hide from you that I am doing this thing with people that hurt you and I’m having a blast with them! It’s just a coincidence that I forgot to tell you!

[blaewen]

I’m starting to feel much better in terms of tiredness and emotional fatigue. It’s giving me more time to be fatigued about work.

I’ve started living in my space again instead of it just being a container for my suffering. I started having fun again.

But also what it took to get better was going no-contact with my best friend. Shit’s fucked up. I miss that mf.

I think that’s also what’s giving me the strength to be back here. I am used to sharing small thoughts from my daily life that are sometimes very funny and sometimes right down depressing and I guess screaming them to the void is better than keeping them in?

Also complaining. I have other friends to complain to but there’s something different in aiming at someone that has all the context of your life and won’t require an explanation and won’t judge you. So yes let’s do the opposite of that. Gonna complain to virtual strangers instead 💃

Technically I am not complaining to anyone, this is a dead blog with no notes but it’s MY dead blog with no notes.