short little read of a script my dear friend @ru-miere wrote for me on the spot some nights ago!! i have fallen terribly in love with acting out my own version of pierrot, putting every ounce of my being into his obsessive behaviour, and... trying not to method act my way into drooling all over my microphone...
but i digress! please enjoy this audio and let me know how you feel about it! script under the cut:
… you're still awake, my dear. i told you not to wait up. the circus runs late.
(a pause)
you smell like sleep. warm. safe… so comforting. i just wanted to come inside but… i stood outside your window before i came in. listening to you breathe in and out. watching how… beautiful you slept.
did you dream of me? no. don't answer. i’d rather imagine you did.
my one and only.
these hands… these claws have broken humans. such bad humans. humans who have spoken your name in ways they should not have. stared at you too long… with those lecherous eyes… i won’t tell you what i did… you may think less of me… but i would do it again… maybe even worse… no… i’d do far worse.
(slow exhale)
but with you, my one. i can’t even hold too tightly… my hands… they tremble so much. cradling you. i can break you… i can break you, my love…
if… if i just hold you down… gently… would you stay? would you let me keep you? oh… i don't know if I could stop myself from keeping you forever.