i don't fully know why I made this acc but I'm on ao3 a lot so hiii
i think I made it so I could give + receive fic recs
fandoms: Haikyuu, Blue Lock, Bungo Stray Dogs, Frieren, Link Click, MXTX-related stuff, Windbreaker, Jujutsu Kaisen, Witch Hat Atelier, various Kpop fandoms, Apothecary Diaries, Demon Slayer, various Webtoons, Hell's Paradise, I'm definitely forgetting a lot
maybe promote my own shitty fics? idk I need to get better at writing
find me on AO3 at: soap1709
(my og acc is @sad-little-frying-pan so i swear im not stealing anything its just me from a diff acc lmao)
thank you @athenswrites for the tag! i shall add @imslowlydisintegrating and @taeonysus8 (i really need more writer moots sob sob)
the rules of this tag game: write 2-5 songs that represent a ship between your characters (can be romantic or platonic or a secret third thing). then add a quote from your WIP beneath each song (if possible!).
i've decided that i'm gonna focus on Jae and Jun from TGCT for this since i'm currently working on that fic and this might help me get the vibes right for once (literally on my third rewrite already, someone send help ;^;)
this song reminds me of them because, in a moment of vulnerability, Jae makes Jun promise that he will keep hating her until the end of time. her greatest secret is that she is terminally ill (suffering from a heart illness) and that's why she lives every day like it's her last - considering how she refuses bad medication most days, she could drop dead at any moment. anyway, she has no problem hanging out with Jun and getting into messy situations with him because she believes that he will keep hating her indefinitely. unlike her friends, he won't mourn her when she dies - or at least that's what she believes. even when things get a little heated and feelings start brewing, Jae pushes the longing aside and intends to cut him off when the time comes. having a relationship with him would only subject Jun to a great deal of heartache and Jae would much rather he stay as her enemy than have him become something more only to end up wasting his life on mourning her once she passes away.
"Please hate me," Jae whispered, pulling him out of his thoughts.
When he turned to look at her, he was caught off by the silent plea shining in her eyes. "Why?" Jun frowned, confused by her request. "Why do you want me to hate you?"
"Because you hated me before," Jae responded quietly. "It should be easy for you to keep hating me even if we start hanging out and acting civil with one another like this." A sad smile tugged at the corners of her lips as she added, "Besides, you never liked me in the first place, did you? So don't change that now. Don't stop hating me."
Jun is the first to breach the thin line between love and hate. being reluctant acquaintances with Jae seems impossible until he finds himself thinking constantly about her, wondering if she got home safely from school, becoming irritated when she's too close to other guys, and so on. he denies it time and time again, half because he cannot imagine that he could've caught feelings for his enemy and half because he subconsciously knows that nothing good will come out of him developing feelings for her. still, a part of him can't help but yearn to cross over that line. unfortunately, Jae is intent on staying enemies. no one said anything about that coming with a few benefits though...
Uh oh, he thought, his Adam's apple bobbing as he swallowed. This won't end well.
"Hey," he uttered quietly, knowing that he should probably step away from her but not being able to move from the spot.
Jae quirked her eyebrow at him. Equally quietly, she replied, "Hi...?"
"About my wish..."
"What about it?"
Jun's eyes flickered down to her lips briefly. Influenced by a sudden burst of bravery, he blurted out, "I know what I want."
"Oh yeah?" Jae tilted her head to the side curiously, a small smile playing on her lips. She found his awkwardness adorable, but she wasn't about to tell him that. Instead, voice quiet, she prompted, "What is it?"
"...Kiss me."
when they figure out that they are living in the world of a manhwa and that all that they have been through was scripted by The Writer for the plot, Jae and Jun begin to question everything - their past, their hardships, their relationship, and where The Writer intends to take the story next. amidst the chaos, they start to remember bits and pieces of their previous lives and both start wondering whether their feelings for one another are real or if, perhaps, they are nothing more than a set-up forced upon them by their god.
(i have yet to write this section so no WIP writing for this i'm afraid)
i really can’t believe how i’m feeling now compared to a few weeks ago. sure, i’m in a ton of post-surgical pain, considering i’m only 3 days out from surgery, but a year’s worth of chronic pain in my hip is magically gone overnight. this incision in my thigh is nothing compared to what that pain felt like. and it makes sense, since the tumor they pulled out was around 4 inches by 2 inches. that’s larger than two golf balls! they thought it was far smaller from the scan, but when they started pulling it out.. it just kept coming. (my surgeon called it a “clown car” tumor.) the doctor thinks i have tgct/pvns, which was the original diagnosis, except the final scan and surgery determined that mine is localized, not diffuse, which has a much lower recurrence rate - and it could actually mean that my surgery is curative!
i’m still incredibly incapacitated due to the nerve block and nerve pain pump keeping my leg pretty much useless, but i can do small movements now and i’m able to walk relatively effectively with the walker. all that being said though, i’d take this over the previous pain any day. it also helps knowing that this is temporary. i’m in surprisingly good spirits, all things considered. i’m holding onto hope and looking toward a brighter future, one in which my quality of life is worlds better than it is now!
