#theauthorkin

[fictionkinfessions]

I’m a nice guy. I promise I’m a nice guy. Just because I never became the Host doesn’t mean I’m evil. Host is my brother and I love the guy but to be constantly compared hurts. I’m not a bad guy! I’m just, I’m just a guy. Please, I just want to be a good guy.

- The Author 💛🖋️

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[fictionkinfessions]

You know it's bad when you see anything yellow and think of him. -The Author

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[fictionkinfessions]

not many other egos knew how dark used to be, before he (as i say it at least) got its shit together. he used to be more of an entity of pure chaos, like wilford and i were, and it was always a bit emo about the whole thing (both in dress and demeanor).

something changed. i remember i didn't like it, not at first, because it was almost like... he grew out of me. it didn't want to hang out like we used to anymore and our interactions got less playful and more full of just straight up resentment and it just felt fucking awful.

things were different, of course, when i was different. it's odd, how i feel so differently about this one event depending on which part of me i'm thinking about it as. part of me thinks about him oh so fondly but the other wants to crush it under my heel like he's nothing but the dirt i walk on. i wish i could explain myself succinctly and in a way that makes sense but every time i try, it just doesn't feel right.

people talk about it losing me when i died, but i never get to talk about losing him because it has an actual backstory now or whatever so i can't say anything without having to give like 10000 different justifications for it.

...i lamented earlier this year about wishing that i had these memories again. i think i'm starting to regret saying that now.

- the author ⚾️/the host 🎙️(youtubekin)

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[fictionkinfessions]

Let me just curl up with my friends and family. Can’t I just be happy and soft with the people I love? I’m not the cold hearted killer fandom makes me out to be. Not a killer at all actually. Sure I get angry but everyone does. It’s more frustration than anything. Everyone gets frustrated when people DON’T COOPERATE!!

Maybe I’m different from canon. Maybe I’m happy about that. I don’t want to be who everyone thinks I am. I wish there were more people who thought “oh, he’s just a guy.” Because I am. I’m just a guy.

- The Author 💛

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[fictionkinfessionsarchived]

Me Yesterday: Aha, yes it is good being The Author. I can't wait to yell at Dark about my lack of eyes. Me Today: SAH DUDE I'M JUST GONNA YEET AND STAY AS FAR AWAY FROM THAT DARKIPLIER AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE :DDDD

[fictionkinfessionsarchived]

I miss my power so terribly. I miss the Iplier Inc. building. I hell, I miss the Jims running into my office at three in the morning pointing their dumb camera in my face. If you guys are out there, I miss you. Except Dark, I remembered, you took my eyes. -The Author

[fictionkinfessionsarchived]

Is it weird that I like my canonmate's Alfred Jones shift more than I like Darkiplier?? Because Alfred makes me far more at ease than Dark. Alfred -The Author who overthinks his relationship with his canonmates

[fictionkinfessionsarchived]

I'm weirdly afraid of talking to my cannonmate Dark. Mostly because he's the first canonmate that I've met/spoken to. The only canonmate I actually talk to. My memory cleared up a bit anD DARK TOOK MY F*CKING EYES. And I don't know how to feel about a possible alliance with him. -The Author/Host who overthinks his relationship with Darkiplier