i have an appointment with my psychologist tomorrow so why on earth do I feel like I'm showing up to take a final exam?? like BRO CHILL you're just going to cry and tell them what triggered your anxiety this week it's not that hard (it's is)
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i have an appointment with my psychologist tomorrow so why on earth do I feel like I'm showing up to take a final exam?? like BRO CHILL you're just going to cry and tell them what triggered your anxiety this week it's not that hard (it's is)
Well, I sent my dad all the notes to send to my therapist for therapy. We've got notes on that bad storm from a while ago, notes on my dad working full time, notes on my stomach pain, lots of stuff. I don't know how much of it we'll end up discussing in our appointment, but I think it's good to try and discuss it all anyways.
We may end up discussing the idea of my dad dating again. We may end up discussing me potentially being aromantic. I'm really nervous to discuss it, but we may discuss it. So I'll try to stay open to it.
I'm gonna go for a shower soon. My stomachs still bothering me with constipation and stuff. I'm also still dealing with that wart or callus on my ring finger. And oh yeah, my dad goes back to work tonight. But I'll try to manage. I'll try.
So I saw my therapist today. It went really well. She read the poetry book I’m working on and said once I write more poems she’ll possibly help me look into getting it published.
I can do this!
🦇🌿
Can we talk about how fucking hard therapy is. Seriously.
Walking into therapy like
I got officially diagnosed with BPD today and as my therapist was explaining why she doesn’t treat personality disorders all I could hear was “abandonment abandonment abandonment” so ok time to DITCH this lady SPLIT SPLIT SPLIT ✌🏼
The depression is back.
I have a zoom meeting with my therapist in just under an hour, and I'm making a list of things to talk about that just. Keeps getting longer.
I feel like the "big things" I was going to talk about are actually lifelong symptoms of depression and unsupportive relationships, but the underlying issues are ... Like they go back to childhood.
Wish me luck, I don't know how to get started coping, but I guess that's why I have a therapist.
Thank fuck for having room in the budget to do this.
Continuing to deep breathe and try to do something useful till I have to set up the call.