okay so the whole time in my ward round dr buchan kept talking about emotional dysregulation and about my dad having a carers assessment and how my condition is hard to treat and all this but I still have taking tablets in my mind and it's so easy just to take them all and I really want to take tablets and be fucking drowsy and my social worker is referring me to a DBT programme of group sessions and individual therapy aswell as art therapy so I can understand my emotions which is cool I had to sit in my ward round with my social worker, two psychiatrists, my named nurse, and my dad and legit felt so anxious and went all quiet while I got asked about a million questions ugh