#thesesagepoets

[soulfulreverie]

you fed me, when I had no appetite for life.

s.a., dining companion

[living-in-salt]

Inferno

Deep in my chest is a fire dying to get out,

And so what do I do?

I open my big mouth and spit flames. I'm sorry,

this happens every time.

I try to say I love you, but instead I burn the whole

village down.

I try to say don't leave me, but instead the whole

forest is ablaze.

I try to say I'm sorry, and now everybody is just dust.

Last night I went to bed with a dry mouth and wet eyes.

When I woke up, my hands were made of tinder and

my legs were made of kindling.

When I woke up, the fire in my belly had already turned

me to ashes and smoke.

Secretly, I am still longing for you to

breath me in so I can sit deep in your chest and slowly

make you mine forever.

Secretly, I am waiting for love to kill me.

[ntpoetry]

So I sit in a yellow home, with yellow walls that remind me of my childhood- when the weight of my mother’s grief didn’t make her back ache, and my father’s eyes didn’t look so tired. I wonder where sorrow goes when it has no where else to plant its roots. Does it build a yellow home with yellow walls? Is that why I sit here writing with my heart on the floor?

[theprocast]

I sincerely hope that you find the courage to walk away when you need to, even if it means breaking your heart into tiny million pieces.

s.a., let yourself be healed

[soulfulreverie]

[soulfulreverie]

I fear that now I experienced

sharing a meal with you,

I can't eat without thinking of you.

I fear that now I've known the feeling of

waking up right next to you,

I know for sure I would have

nightmares of sleeping alone.

I fear that now I've known

the taste of your lips,

I am definitely hooked like an addict

and I have grown mad, mad, mad

because I want to get my next fix.

I fear that now I've known what it feels like

to finally be in your arms,

I wouldn't want to let go.

I fear that now we were given a brief moment

to revisit our old damn plans,

all I want is for you to be my future.

I fear that after all these years,

my heart will never love anyone else

the way I loved you.

s.a., Long Distance pt. II

[soulfulreverie]

I still have a box of all the letters I wrote to you from almost a decade ago. I read said letters from time to time and cry myself to sleep. I eventually will forget about it.

s.a., two truths, and a lie

[soulfulreverie]

It's a dating fact that moving on is not easy. If it was, you probably never loved that person in the first place but what people fail to mention is that moving on can sometimes bring you more scars and bruises than you can ever imagine. With that, here are some facts about moving on that people tend to sometimes forget:

1. If you ever went through a major break up, you know that it's not the person who you mourn for—it's what you shared: the little things that you no longer have. You will find yourself looking for the routines and the familiarity of having someone around. In time, you will realize that it's not really the person you miss but it's all about the things they do that make you really happy. Letting a broken heart heal is a long process of self-recovery and self-reinvention.

2. You do not actually heal in the arms of someone; you heal when you let yourself. It all depends on allowing yourself to go through the process of healing. Because even though you say that you want to move on but your heart begs to mourn still, you really cannot do anything about it. Let yourself feel.

3. Even though you are on the process of moving on, there will be times that you would be thinking of the uncertainties of your former relationship. "Why didn't it work out? I gave my all", "What if we had done this instead of...". This is normal. It can be hard to admit to yourself but thinking about the could have been's does not equate wanting the person back. Let go slowly. Every day is a choice, you can wake up feeling afraid of the future without the person you loved the most. Choose yourself even moving forward is hard without the love you used to have before. We don't always end up with the love we want and it's okay. Trust the process and let the timing win.

4. It is not linear. Moving on is not linear! Not because when you decide to move on, you will magically do so within a night's sleep or a week. There will be times that you will cry your eyes out because you miss the person. And it's alright. What you had is irreplaceable no matter how it ended up. It is alright to mourn. But it is never right to come running back to the person who caused you pain.

5. You will hate yourself in the process. You might even start to hate the way you loved that person. But always remember that you should never regret something that made you really happy once.

Moving on is not like driving enthusiastically forward as if it’s about having one foot on the gas and the other on the brakes–releasing and advancing in turn. Healing is never a race, take your own time and I promise once you get there, you will like you're as good as new.