“walking down your authentic path can be one of the loneliest roads to travel on because the longer you’re on it, the more you realize that only a select few will be compatible with who you are with no mask on.”
— billy chapata

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“walking down your authentic path can be one of the loneliest roads to travel on because the longer you’re on it, the more you realize that only a select few will be compatible with who you are with no mask on.”
— billy chapata
"I wanted to be unforgettable. Indelible. I wanted to haunt their hearts and minds—to be everywhere and nowhere, spectacular and out of reach. Only in the chaos did it dawn on me. Being remembered is not the same as being missed."
“And, it feels like I’ve known you from some time before. Like, you left a porch light on for me in another life.”
-m.n. | “Stay, even when it’s rainy.”
"He swung me around and around. My vision blurry with tears in my eyes. As much as it pained me to stay, it hurt more to let go. It felt like he left his imprint on me, digging his claws into my skin. His miasma filling my veins, turning my blood purple and my fingers blue." she said.
"But this is what I felt I needed. He was what I felt I deserved. So I continued to hold on. I continued to rot, but I continued to hold on."
Please tell me something different
Please tell me something real
I don't know how I'm supposed to feel
Because I look to you and you say nothing
More of what needs to be done
More of what needs to be fixed
But you never once say I'm enough
You never once made me feel complete
Please don't tell me something else needs to be fixed
I don't give a damn about something needing to be cleaned
I just want you to love me
Just tell me that you're proud of me
yearn, rage, grief, love.
suffering truly relinquishes when faith restoration begins
In English we say, "I miss you," but in poetry we say, "Your absence is a hollow ache, a silent echo that reverberates through my days and nights."
I walk through the spaces we once shared, and the world seems dimmer, the colors muted. The laughter that once filled the air is now a distant memory, a ghostly whisper that lingers at the edge of my consciousness. The scent of your presence still haunts the rooms, a lingering trace that clings to the corners, refusing to be forgotten.
The days stretch long and empty, each moment a reminder of your absence. The sun rises and sets, casting long shadows that stretch across the floor, mimicking the void within me. The stars at night seem dimmer, their light no longer enough to chase away the darkness that has settled in my heart.
I find myself searching for you in the little things: in the way the wind rustles the leaves, in the quiet moments of dawn, in the fleeting smiles of strangers. Each reminder a bittersweet pang, a reminder of what was and what is no longer.
Your absence is a melody that plays softly in the background of my life, a tune that I cannot escape. It is the silence that follows a symphony, the quiet that lingers after the music has stopped. It is a weight that I carry with me, a part of me that is missing, a piece of my soul that is incomplete.
In poetry, I say, "You are the unspoken verse, the missing line in my song, the empty space in my heart that only you can fill."