🎁what do they want most? what are they willing to sacrifice to get it?
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🎁 – what do they want most? what are they willing to sacrifice to get it?
Honestly, more than anything else, Chuck wants control. I’d like to think that’s a season 14/15 thing, but it’s there in season 11 as well. Heck, it’s even there in season 4. Chuck says to Dean and Castiel in 4.22, “You guys aren’t supposed to be there [at St. Mary’s convent] you’re not in this story”. And then again, 11.20, he says to Metatron, “This isn’t [Amara’s] story. It’s mine.” If I had to name one thing Chuck wants, it’s control. He describes himself “being”, and Amara as “nothingness” – everything in his worlds is his. He made it, he’s God, Alpha and Omega, the First and the Last, yada yada yada, and therefore, he gets to control it. That’s his right, as the author of the universe.
As for what he’s willing to sacrifice to get it? That’s tough to answer. Initially, he sacrificed his sister, the Darkness, what Metatron describes as “the only thing he’d ever known”. Now, while it could be seen as selfless – Chuck sealing away his evil big sister, the Darkness, to keep his precious creation safe (Chuck himself says, in 11.21, that “the world needed to be born”) from her wrathful destruction – it is also very selfish. He wanted to tap into his creative powers, to make something other than himself, to explore what he could do, and make worlds. Amara says that he did it to make himself Lord, to bring things into being. And that’s true. Chuck locked away his other half, the yang to his yin, the Darkness to his Light, so he could have total control over his story. Amara is his only equal, his celestial antithesis, and he sacrificed her for his control.
Another thing he’s willing to sacrifice for control is connection. Look at Sam and Dean, and how he treated them in the season 14 finale. He was their buddy before, because it suited his story at the time – in seasons 4 and 5, he was the prophet Chuck, and then he was the relatable dad Chuck in season 11, because those roles suited where he wanted to be in the story. He was the wizard behind the curtain, the secret puppet master, but still happy to let “his guys”, Sam and Dean, have free will. He says it himself, in the beautiful 5.22 speech, “I’d say this was a test, for Sam and Dean. And I think they did all right. Up against […] God himself, they made their own choice. They chose family. And, well… isn’t that kinda the whole point?” For a long time, he let the brothers have control over their own story, and let it play out how they wanted, just to see where it went without his involvement. Until he wasn’t.
He sacrificed a lot when he “outed” himself as the master manipulator of Sam and Dean’s story. He sacrificed their trust, their friendship, that rapport they’d built in season 11. He sacrificed Sam’s starry-eyed awe, Dean’s begrudging acceptance, the tentative respect both the boys had for him as God-with-a-capital-G. And he sacrificed all that for control over the story, because he lost his temper and wanted things to go his way, so he demanded that Dean pick up the gun and shoot Jack, he told them all “this isn’t how the story’s supposed to end”. And, in doing so, he sacrificed the one thing that, I think, he’s always sacrificed for the sake of control. It’s the same thing he sacrificed when he locked Amara away at the beginning of time. Family.
