#thethiinkingbox

[chimericarchitect]

🌠 Infrared

Glass coca cola bottles and bits of copper wire, stagnant water on the floor, wax and nametags, building inspectors.

Rats. Duh. Literally all rats. You're the rat man, my friend, and to say otherwise would be a mistruth.

Curry! :0

[secret-delirium]

This is what I'm talking about, where he just jumps from zero to nine thousand. He didn't even give me a chance to reply, he just self destructed and ran away, and it's UPSETTING. I politely expressed that I wasn't comfortable with his ideology, requested that we not discuss things that involve his casually dismissive attitude IF he refuses to change that outlook, and he does this. How am I supposed to feel about this? About someone who would rather tuck tail and run, PROBABLY to do some self-loathing bullshit, rather than talk to me?

And now I feel guilty for clearly upsetting him and I feel angry about feeling guilty, like it's a punishment, even though it's not, or at the very least not an intentional or conscious one. I don't even get the luxury of saying goodbye, he didn't try to engage in a dialogue or ask about my decision, he just... hung up on me. Shut me out. Acted like I spontaneously attacked him.

I don't deserve to be treated this way. Everyone keeps telling me that I shouldn't treat them as the same, that alternates are different and these are two different people entirely, but at what point do I accept the red flags as red flags?

I don't want to let this ruin my day, but it really sucks.

[secret-delirium]

I don't know Sollux, WOULD it be nice? Maybe it would be, for you, who hates yourself, little scum on the bottom raised pretty at the top.

But then, that still requires more of you, more people to be at the bottom. "Wouldn't that be nice?" It'd be the same. It'd be the same, dude.

I know you realistically didn't mean it like that, right? You're not that blind and selfish are you? I GET IT, and it's all hypothetical anyway, I shouldn't be so mad that I run off here to rant to myself, should I?

[secret-delirium]

You'd think he'd be more cautious and less arrogant given how very badly the "prepared" rescue of Theo could have gone, but alright.

[secret-delirium]

Wow, not again

This is such crap

I can't do anything, again

And I really feel like I should

Compelled

Like I'm stagnant and doing something wrong

Something WRONG

Is it just

Because I like him

Because it's the same as Tulket

Or

is there something wrong

with me...?

[secret-delirium]

These two goobers are just shouting at each other about how respectively tall and small they are, and honestly, what complete and total dorks.

[tauriformanimagus]

thethiinkingbox reblogged your post:mY SMART GIRL, pOSING FOR A PICTURE,

what i2 THAT

sHE’S PEACHES, aND SHE’S A GOOD GIRL,

[secret-delirium]

This festival of souls or whatever it is? It kinda just seems like an average hangout except with holiday lights and treats we're not allowed to eat. (Not that I am particularly in the mood for sweets.) Infrared and Theo are being gay at each other and I've been roped into the same, and they're cute, and I'm trying not to be anxious.

Sollux is RIGHT THERE though.