it is so unfair that I have to script a perfect family. it's sad that i have to script freedom from my own parent in a better cr. it's sad that I use my own parents' behavior as the blueprint for a now estranged, and abusive parent in my dr. it's sad and unfair that I have to hop realities or manifest a new family, just be treated the way that I deserve. my heart goes out to the shifters who also have abusive parents or families they're actively trying to get away from. especially permashifters. I will never feel selfish about leaving behind a coercive and emotionally abusive parent. and I will never feel bad about hating my "cr" parent. I hate my parent.
I will never apologize for hating them, because they stopped apologizing for things they've done to me. I'm not gonna apologize for replacing them with a better, healthy version of what they should've been. and you shouldn't either. this so called "family" I was given, sucks. and I'm not gonna pretend it doesn't or like the relationships I have are not flawed. they are. the way they operate is fucked up. and I'm not going to be apart of it.
stop telling people they are selfish for choosing a better life. you should be condemning the very reasons someone would even want to permashift. not them. they are not selfish. a reality, society, and people that are constantly taking from them is what's selfish. abusers are selfish. a victim is not selfish for getting away from them.