#third trimester mood

[artichokefartichoke]

38 weeks 6 days pregnant. Last week at my appointment I was 70% effaced with no dilation yet. Cervical check was ok but painful. Not a fan, but glad to get measured.

Jack feels huge inside of me. I am huge. My belly aches constantly with the weight of my child and all that grew with him in there. I'm tired and restless, feeling depressed, anxious, and crabby. I'm ready to go into labor, like at least early labor. Something to get things moving. 🤷‍♀️

I have my 39 week visit tomorrow. After that our doctor will be gone for the rest of the week. I wanted to have baby boy this week. I'm not interested in going to the due date. He measures big, and he's moving around like a whole damn baby in there. He's a fully formed human babe and there's not much need for him to stay inside of me.

I'm just impatient and ready for something to happen. No more pregnancy. It sucked the life out of me; let's move on to the next step! We want to meet our little fella.

[penelopebeck]

What should we watch tonight, babies?

Pluto doesn't look like he'll be awake for long.

[penelopebeck]

It was a perfectly pleasant nap, and a perfectly pleasant attempt at bedtime after a nice dinner. When Nelly grew frustrated at not finding a comfortable position and struggling to sleep she finally got up from the bed and wandered to the living room, starting Netflix and sitting up on the couch.

Chris had said to wake him up if she couldn't sleep, but she couldn't bear to disturb him. Instead, she welcomed Pluto and Polaris as her company as she decided between Friends and Parks and Rec for a late night binge.

[penelopebeck]

Nelly left Meggi's with some cookies in a bag to take home to Beck. The second cup of coffee and the good conversation had energized her a bit, but the afternoon had turned a little overcast and that wasn't helping her mood either.

It was quiet when she entered the house. Figuring Beck was working or reading in his office, Nelly put the cookies on the coffee table and stretched out on the couch, pulling the blue blanket from Hal over her tightly. A nap couldn't hurt.

It didn't take long for her to drift off in the darkening room, lulled to sleep in spite of Sky's pokes and nudges.

[penelopebeck]

First really chilly night and my feet are cold....socks it is. I've had half a gallon of milk thanks to the heartburn and I'm sitting up to help that and the insomnia - don't tell Chris, he's asleep!

[penelopebeck]

It's getting more difficult to stay comfortable lying down. I may need to go on Amazon and look for one of those pregnancy pillows.