When is it my turn being the self destructive one? Everyone gets to be high, drunk, make fucking horrible decisions BUT NOOOOO, NOT ME, fuck off. I have to be responsible, i have to be thinking about my future, i have to fucking take care of everyone o keep them from fucking up, god, fuck up, do shit, bad shit thatll ruin your life, you live once, but i cant be that person cause of course i cant, cause my parents or family or whatever have high expectation. The only thing that should be high here is me, im fucking 21, i didnt get to be a teenager and now i cant be a young adult??? Go fucking die in a ditch and have your corpse be food to and pissed on by rats, im wasting my fucking existence doing fuck all cause capitalism and because my fucking family wants me to?? I wanna spend my day either gaming, fucking, jerking off or sleeping, and i cant fucking do any of these properly right now cause im fucking anxious and depressed and ALSO i cant make out with my somewhat/unlabeled boyfriend cause its "Under my father's roof" (the public spaces of the building we live in) and he doesnt want that in his house, FUCK I HATE EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING, CHRISTIANISM AND CAPITALISM ARE JUST ABOUT THE SINGLE WORST THING TO HAVE EVER CURSED HUMANITY WITH ITS EXISTENCE, I WANT ALL CHRISTIANS DEAD I SWEAR TO FUCKING HELL
