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20s ! He-Him ! ENG/ESP ! Autistic

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Welcome to my blog!! I'm F1sh/Rol, I got by He/They and this is my main blog were I post my art and interests

My fav characters are: Smile (Pop'n Music), Jedah (Darkstalkers), Cube (Princess Maker 2), Lupin III, Ash (Pop'n Music), Yuli (Pop'n Music), etc

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So yeah I've goy into this little game called Beatmania IIDX... AND I'M NOT A FUDANSHI I promise

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Guess who is readyyyyy!!!

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Long rant/vent

Sigh

I've been out for a while, a lot of shit happened, and is currently happening. My family still sucks, but I'd rather not talk about, same w my unemployement. But recently i've cut off my best friend, who i've dubbed as my ex-wife. I miss her, I feel aimless, we had a lot of things planned, and she knew me like no anyone else would. But I couldn't keep up, I feel like I've ditched a depressed person on their own, but at the same time I'm starting to feel the weight of depression

I'm still a horrible person, a coward, i barely have a direction on life and I'm more self destructive by the day. I've been biting myself again, i'm being reckless more often, which is bad for my driving lessons. I'm so unfocused, and soon I must start studying for opositions (shit in spain) and I'm not sure I can focus. I think I've rotted my brain with constant stimulation. I feel envy of people that aren't lost, but I no longer know what to do apart from leaving my parents home. I've lost quite some kilos, my bmi is 16 and that's concerning. Been a freak more often too... I despise me... but I'd rather not repeat that much

In other news I've gotten into Beatmania IIDX, I'm a bit low on Deuils sadly, but now they remind me of my ex-wife, well Ashyuli does, I do love them a lot, A LOT, but w/o her I've lost a bit of motivation. I'll be back, but I need to process it all still, so if I draw some Beatmania don't worry, I'm still pop'n it. Being honest I've been low in art, in general. I miss when my ex-wife got bombarded with all my w.i.ps, I think I seek approval too much, I really depended on her

This summer I got a few projects, a pop'n summer comic and a Beatmania dual illustration. I'm dissappointed in myself for not starting my neocities or doing youtube vids, but I also don't know anymore what videos I want to do

I've been missing interacting w the pop'n fandom, I hope I become active again

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The beach during mystery time

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Jack w a fuckton of scars

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Goku-Sotsu-Kun day animation!!

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im anxious about posting this but im anxious about everything and i have to stopWHATEVER GO MY TAINYAMI FANKID.

ive been in a oc mood lately, and ive also been in a tainyami mood since ,, forever. so this was a matter of time im pretty sure

i guess i should talk here more abt them ummm (under the cut aha)

azusa is from a timeline separate of the main one (bc im personally not sure if timer and nyami would have a kid hmm), they were born a bit after their parents retired from their idol careers and became an idol themselves to "continue carrying dreams" (and because it looked fun (and because their parents are the coolest people they know)). mzd is their producer and kinda like a mentor/uncle figure to them

personality-wise they are a lot like timer but really ditzy, they make sense of things on their own way (even if their way doesnt make sense to others, azusa understands it perfectly) and usually have their head in the clouds most of the time, they are not dumb though.

they also like fashion and cute accesories and such, as well as being very fond of bunnies!

nevertheless they have a rather short temper, though they try to hide their anger the best they can when possible

thats all ive thought about for now.. maybe ill add more stuff when i make their art fight profile (because YES ill have them on my art fight, i have to stop being scared of everything!!!!!!! now!!!!!!!!!)

thank yous for reading :)

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Deuil shitposts!!!! I'm trying to get back to drawing kinda slowly

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Reblog if it's okay to invade your ask box

Always

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Watching Nana and omfg it's so good auuuugh

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Bro who got recently into pop'n music thanks to yuli and now i like deuil too!! ><

extra~~

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I keep forgetting to upload this one to here... Here's ALT!

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100 SMILES!!!

Drew Smile 100 times! I challenged myself to draw him daily, but I'm running a bit out of ideas, so I'll pivot to also drawing Deuil

Also also one of these is a face-up for a bjd that a friend gifted me!!

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Had to bust out Ms paint for the 20th anniversary c:

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Yep, yep, I give it up on the mmo searching, none of the game clicked w me, and now I'm hooked playing Tomodachi life!! Some bad things are going on but I gotta get strong and endure

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Update on my MMO quest:

Gave up on installing TalesRunner, r.i.p I loved the character designs and I wanted to play it when I was a kid

Gave up making Pangya work, it def doesn't run on my pc

I'm liking Nostale more than I expected, but the reviews worry me, sad since I wanted to try it when I was 12

I love Mabinogi vibes but It's taking me a lot to understand the game

so it's all between Nostale and Mabinogi, I plan to play 5 hpurs of each (I know, it's little, but I'm packed atm)