Yet again absolutly fucking sick because I've been reminded that it's canonical that Sanji will end up like judge if he doesn't find the all blue.
Fucking disgusted at the fact that the only thing standing between Sanji and judge is Zeff and his teachings.
If Sanji stays true to himself, and finds the all blue, if he keeps his promise to Zeff, then he'll end up like him. He'll be happy, he'll become a chef like his dad.
But if he gives up? If he fails, if he runs away? If he fails to feed a hungry man or hurts a woman? If zeff's teaching, Zeff's principles lose their grasp on Sanji? He'll slip back into that scared child, he'll go back to being Zeff's son.
It makes me goddamned nauseated. To think the Sanji that always protects children, that would never hurt a women, would become just like the man that emotionally abused a women who trusted him into suicide. A man who abused a child because he was weak.
Everything Sanji is could be turned on it's head if he ever gave up hope, if he ever gave up Zeff.