This is my official unofficial goodbye post.
I doubt I'll be roleplaying here anymore. I can't say I'll never RP Gil again, I can't say that I'm going to log out after this and never come back, because we all know that's BS.
But I don't think I really have a place here anymore. While a handful of the friends I've made in this fandom are still active, the majority have moved on or are just as scarcely here as I am. While I enjoy Hetalia for everything it's done for me - made me enthusiastic about other countries and their languages/cultures, introduced me to RP, introduced me to fandom, and of course introduced me to a lot of great people - and while I still adore its characters, I no longer watch nor care for the anime nor follow the web comic or anything else having to do with it. While Gil is still active as a muse, both he and I feel incredibly detached from everyone, and it's hard to RP a character that feels no reason to be around. I don't mean that in a dramatic way, I promise.
He's happy though, Gil. He's okay now. The songs currently on this blog are very fitting, as is the picture in the bottom corner. That picture is exactly how he feels. And that's the best note I could ever end on. That's all I could have ever wanted for him.
Part of me really wants to get sappy with this and do the whole thing where I talk about how much this blog and this character means to me and how much fun I've had despite the rougher times because all of this really did mean a lot to me. The good times were great and the bad times, I learned from. All of that. But I don't think anyone wants to read through the emotional mess that that would become.
I'd like to say a final I'm sorry though, even if it's not needed. Anyone that's ever had to deal with my shit, my immaturity, my how-did-I-ever-think-that-was-acceptable - I'm sorry. I know most of us are cool now and have been for a while but the few that I never did come to a formal understanding with - I'm sorry. Not that you'll see this, but y'know. It's all behind me now. Clean slates all around, should we ever cross paths again.
Those of you that have managed to stick by me since 2011, I applaud you. 10 million gold stars for you. You have seen things I am not proud of.
Those of you that followed this blog within the last six or so months, I'm sorry I never got around to roleplaying with you guys, sorry that you never got to see this blog fully active. But thank you for seeing enough potential to follow me in the first place.
All 1,000 of you, even if a good 75% are inactive - thank you. This experience wouldn't have been possible without you.
--That still got kinda sappy, didn't it.
You might see a picture or two from time to time, and Gil might pop in to say hello every once in a rare while, but I won't be making an effort to be here anymore. It's very possible that I may not make a single post for months at a time, and maybe I will eventually fade out for good, who knows. But interests have changed, life has changed, you know how it goes.
For those that got to know me ooc and have any interest in what's going on irl: I recently graduated from college with a BFA in photo. Currently job searching - going full speed into the whole starving artist thing, it seems. No luck yet. I did however sell my original photography for the first time, and am photographing a live performance at a music hall in a few weeks, so maybe there's some hope for me. I'm also turning 22 in August. I made this blog when I was 18, so it's kind of strange. But besides that, there's not a whole lot going on.
And I think that's it, I guess. It's been a fun three years. I hope you've all been doing well and having fun, hopefully I'll see you around.
