#thiswastedlove

[this-wastedlove]

please don’t ever take it lightly whenever I tell you that I love you Because I know that one day, it’ll seem like a routine. I know that there will be days when you question it And you might have your moments when you even refuse to believe it. But trust me when I say that the heaviness in my heart from when I say those words to you is an indication that loving you will never be something I take lightly.

heart to heart // (this-wastedlove)

[this-wastedlove]

I’m going to tell them how much you loved me how the smallest things you did and the smallest things that you do make me smile make me laugh The way you talk, the way you think. I’m so amazed by you. I’ll tell them about The type of person you are; That you were the type of love that was strong enough that was willing to carry my broken pieces the pieces of my heart that weighed heavy, you carried that, you endured it. when I made it hard to, when it wasn’t easy to. I’ll tell them how being loved by the one you love can heal so many scars. How being loved by you mended a life’s worth of heartbreak in just one moment. You showed me how I should’ve been loved all those years. All that wasted love. Time was supposed to heal. But I won’t forget. I’ll them about us. How gentle your touch was how my head rested perfectly on your shoulders when we hugged goodbye. how happy you made me. how safe you’d keep me. How your arms fit perfectly around my waist. I’ll tell them about how you were the first love that loved me back. That you took the butterflies of this earth and placed them in my stomach and made my heart beat again. Whatever happens, I will let the world know that I loved you the most.

firsts // (this-wastedlove)

[this-wastedlove]

You deserve someone who is willing to get in bed with you on a friday night and still be there saturday morning and every morning after that You deserve someone who won’t hang up on you someone who’ll call you back after an argument You deserve someone who won’t let you go to bed with tears in your eyes. and a broken heart. You deserve someone who will love you in the light of day Just as he does in the heat of night.Someone who touches your heart before he touches your body. Someone who’ll cuddle under a blanket with you in the most innocent form kisses on your forehead and the blanket pulled upto your chin You deserve honesty Someone who won’t lie to you just to protect himself someone who will protect you and cherish your heart and keep it safe. Someone who will love you on the days when you don’t love yourself. Someone Who is willing to walk through shards and glass of your broken heart and continue moving towards you, unafraid unfazed by the darkness of your past He looks at you and sees light. You deserve a love so fierce, so passionate. Brave and unafraid. Know your worth. Don’t settle for anything less.

the love you’re entitled to..wait for it. | (this-wastedlove)

[this-wastedlove]

For a star to be born there is one thing that must happen: a gaseous nebula must collapse so collapse crumble This is not your destruction.This is your birth.

fluoresce| lights (this-wastedlove)

[this-wastedlove]

you tell yourself nobody will ever love you because it’s easier than admitting someone might. It’s easier to believe you need no one than to hold onto hope that someday you will need someone. It’s so much easier to believe that you’re cracked than to believe that you’re whole and it’s so much easier to guard your heart from the very start than let someone in and give it the chance of being broken. So you tell yourself nobody will ever love you and you tell yourself it’s because you’re unlovable but in reality you are so lovable. And someone will see that someday. and perhaps that terrifies you more than being alone.

the easy way out | (this-wastedlove)

[this-wastedlove]

exterior beauty, without the depth of a kind soul is merely decoration.

be yourself | (this-wastedlove)

[this-wastedlove]

‘No one’s ‘waiting’ That’s all bullshit.’ This is what my father tells me and he’s right to say that. But somehow somewhere I hope that somebody thinks I’m someone that I’m something worth waiting for.

hopeful // (this-wastedlove)

[this-wastedlove]

All I can write about is the way you hurt me I won’t be able to run away from you I won’t ever be able to run out of this, this feeling, this hurt, this pain. this heaviness in my heart, the heaviness that pulls me down like an anchor tied to my ankles pulling me deeper into this ocean that once was enough to quench our thirst to make us believe that it could offer us life on the hottest days in this summer heat I wanna dive in. Instead you offer me a drink, you put in the palm of your hands this ocean water you keep giving me this ocean water but this water, the salt it only makes it worse. This This ocean water, the one you let me drink but never let me dive in. this is your love. leaving me longing for more, putting me in my place keeping me 3 steps forward & 2 steps back. keeping me at the edge of this island as I stare into the waters longingly. How deep is your love And I jump. But I should’ve known cause the minute I entered in, the water disappeared. cause your love was never meant for me. your love like this ocean It was never available to me. It never existed for me.

mirage // (this-wastedlove)