I am sorry that I neglected to tell you how sick I have been for the past few days. I have never missed a test in my life and yet on Monday I had two tests, but was throwing up violently and could not take them. Thank goodness my professors agreed I could make them up. I thought I had recovered yesterday, but then early this morning of course I continued throwing up. It is awful. There is seriously something wrong with me. I feel sick all the time. I don't understand how I am so unhealthy. Perhaps my feelings are becoming physical manifestations, and instead of just feeling emotional and mental despair, I must now feel it physically as well. I don't know how to be a normal healthy, happy person which makes me always feel like I am a disappointment. I know I don't do nearly as much work as Henry. or anybody else, probably. and I don't even know anything. and im the worst. and I am so, so sorry. Because you deserve so much more than me. This semester is going very badly for me. Similar to the one where I sprained my ankle. Funny that happened this semester too, though it is only a coincidence. Living is so difficult for me, though it does not seem to be so to most. I am sorry that you have such an awful student working under you, who has no idea how to do chemistry, or even really how to be a person. I am sorry that I use these things as excuses instead of trying to overcome them. Well, I suppose that isn't all true, I will give myself some credit, I try to overcome these things every single day. But it just doesn't always work I suppose. The bottom line is, I am sorry, and I don't think that I will ever not feel that way.
