#thoughts in process

[balluprojects]

Tramway Lines in the Sky, 2025

getting into work mode, video study of crossed plains of distance and morning rides to work

a brand vibing morning*

[cedence]

Today I learned... That it is close to impossible for me to write my thoughts about certain topics I mainly discuss online without US defaultism. I am discussing US pov hammered into my head for years discussing MY experienced because MY experiences online are ultimately coated by US discourse. it cannot be removed from it when I use english as a lingua franca. so how do i uncople that? how do i find what's true for my country when it's ages since i looked up the statistics on it because i always felt like the US is where I need to look - they have the cool things, always ahead, a part of the future?

idk it's why i've been trying to inquire with myself when i hear\read something online these last few years and asked myself: is this my lived experience? while this pov is not wrong, is it my truth too? before I adopt it. because *shocker* it often isn't. others limitations may not be my own, others beliefs may no be my own, others paths may not be the one best for me. doesn't mean they're wrong, it just means we're different and we both wring important pov to the table.

[cloudswamp]

something about men as lovers and men as surgeons and interiors being violated with tender skill and knowing they have had their fingers inside your flesh, leaving you forever changed; something about an untouched rage that is all your own, one that revolves around the idea of violently returning the favor.

[ellisternabgau]

Did Leni Riefenstahl emanate Girlpower by making successful propaganda films for the Nazi regime?

[truxblooded]

So I’m thinking about hosting a blurb night on Friday.

would anyone be interested in that if I gave an outline on what I would write blurbs about and for what fandoms?

[hex-wife]

i am having an easier time occupying space these days; an easier time being a body but it is a process that's never going to be complete & at times it is absolutely fraught with an ambiguity about personhood that is pretty frightening in it's lack of direction, in it's lack of cohesion (but then! aren't multiplicities what i've been talking about? being an amorphous un-fixed mass of energy?). i have written about trauma before, trauma held in the body, as body memory that resurfaces at moments as a jarring reminder of a history that is present. but! it's been pretty helpful to think of the ways i inhabit space & use space as a performance piece; to think of my motions/actions/my feelings & mental state & body as inhabiting a space & transforming that space & in turn, being transformed in occupying that space as intention, as a critical examination, as revealing, as unraveling. performance is also temporal & acts as a reminder that things/bodies/states are not fixed, even if our agency in their trajectories is minimal at best.