#thoughtsintheshower

[peppermintspider]

you can’t bite the spot under your tongue

[whileintheshower]

Do you not notice?

I answer your calls immediately. I reply to your texts as soon as I get them. I always say yes and make ways to meet you. I always end up texting or calling you first to make up.

Everything I do is all about you. For you. With you. And that made me happy but there are days where I craved for more. I wished for more. For me. For myself. I wish I could love myself more. I wish I could love my life more even without you.

[issahardknocklife]

If we didn't have eyes we wouldn't even know light and vision existed. If we didn't have ears we would know about vibration but not sound. There may be a whole sense we don't have an organ to perceive...

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[theeverhopefulsoul]

Death always manages to put life in perspective. I need to constantly remind myself that tomorrow truly isn’t guaranteed. Cherish every day and make it count.

[theeverhopefulsoul]

If I had to choose only one trait as the most important in a person it would probably be kindness. It goes such a long way to be just kind to one another.

[literallysameasfuck-blog]

If you momentarily forget a moment you forgot about a moments entire existence and wasted its purpose

[genekiegel]

Found this note I jotted down after my morning shower zoning-outs aka meditations. IThis has nothing to do with the focus of my art but rather a basic drive. It takes me so much effort and energy to express myself verbally or in written form in the way that I wish to be understood that I spend more time than necessary formulating it , editing, condensing that at the end it becomes dry and unnecessary. I would much rather spend all my time expressing myself through art and non-verbally and I need a telepath assistant who loves to write and market me to the outside world that is somewhat foreign to me on many levels.. This post will probably self-destruct shortly. #genekiegel #artiststatement #thoughtsintheshower #meditation #notes #selfconfession (at New York, New York)

[superlameorama]

Thoughts in the Shower

It’s been a while… Everything’s changed. Perceptions, thoughts, routines, myself.

Been thinking of a time capsule. How was I during the past 10 years & how would I be for another 10 years? Life is pretty tiring with the never ending change & responsibilities to fulfill. Full of what if’s & what should’s yet I end up stuck with my stubborness & having nothing yet to fulfill.

Contentment - something that’s pretty undefinable as time passes. I’d think I’m already fine with what I have but there’s always that struggle to want more & more of this life but ends up having nothing.

Plans - just always stays in my mind. Never leaves. It changes, yes, but somehow I always fail to have it put to reality. All is a struggle.

The goals are still the same. That same PROMISE that I still keep on holding on to. What keeps me going & gives me hope. However, it’s already hanging by a thread - with doubts, stubborness & procrastination to drag me down. How will I ever get there? Time’s running out.

Regrets - why did I even?!

Stubborness - why am I always listening to you?

Gut-wrenching - why don’t I listen to you?

It’s always been a war inside me. I’ve told what is right to do, yet I’ve always have doubts. Sometimes when I do the right thing, it’s always questioned & accused wrong. Or is it? It’s really confusing. All the thoughts are in my head yet why doesn’t my actions respond rightly?

It’s definitely a war. Physically & mentally. Either way, I always lose & end up with the question “Am I on the right track?”

Pride - my utmost & worst enemy of all. Am I living for myself? Or for the thoughts of people around me? Or maybe am I just feeding off from the praises of others so that I might take pride for myself? Me, myself, and I. Was I always like this?

Oh, how I miss the sweet innocence of childhood. Or was that trying to be ignorant of the things going on around me. How selfish; that is what on being a child.

At the end of it all, it’s still all useless. Just keep the thoughts to myself. Bury it. It will never be of relevance. I’m just a speck, who will end up as a dust when the time comes. But. But there’s still that aching hope to leave a legacy. To find my utmost purpose. Why was I created like this? Why was I put to this situation? Why am I surrounded with these thoughtsm Why? Why? Why?

ECC. 3:11 He has made everything beautiful in it’s time. Also He has put eternity into man’s heart, so that he cannot find what God has done from beginning to end.

The words are still ringing. That’s always why.

One thing’s for sure. We do not live for our own selves. WE LIVE FOR GOD, that’s our sole purpose. We are created to find our own selves in His likeness so that we may come back to dust, to come back to Him. We were created to take care of His creations including ourselves (as was described in the creation in the book of Genesis).

It’s always been a war. Between our sole desires & our sole purpose of existence.

It’s always a choice between the two, live life to the fullest & choose wisely.