#thoughtswithkelly

[tbhkelly]

A year ago I would’ve never worn a shirt like this out in public, I would hide my body and wear baggy clothes because I honestly just hated what I saw when I looked in the mirror. I thought “maybe if I just lose 10 pounds I’ll be happy” but honestly, I know I’ll never have a “perfect” body by societal standards, it’s about accepting not changing yourself. I’ll always have hips and thighs that are thicker than I want them to be, and arms that aren’t too muscular or too thin, but I still love myself and accept that I am who I am and my metabolism doesn’t allow me to be stick skinny. I am all around loving myself more and taking care of myself, drinking more water and eating healthier, and appreciating my body instead of hating on myself. You should always always look for acceptance within yourself, not think about the things you should change to make yourself beautiful, that is a toxic mindset and I promise you that once you change those things you’ll only find more to change.

[tbhkelly]

There is something both so beautiful and so terrifying about falling for someone. I don’t know what it is, and I think that’s the most frustrating part to me. I really don’t know what it is that draws me to you but you do it over and over again, when my thoughts are wrapped up in something else they somehow get brought back to you and I get this feeling in my chest. I’m torn between calling it my anxiety yelling at me not to get any closer, and my heart telling me that this is what I’ve been asking, waiting, for. There is something so beautiful about the feeling I get when we talk and how no one else can make me feel that way, the way I want to capture the moments we spend together in snapshots and empty jars. Yet, there is something so terrifying about the thought of this all turning to dust and having to start all over again.

———K.P., Falling

[tbhkelly]

Rant time:

I post pictures of myself that I feel good about in for MYSELF, and because I want to put them on my blog. My blog is a space where I should feel comfortable, and the same goes for everyone else posting photos of themselves/photos they’ve taken. That’s never an open invitation to send inappropriate messages to a person that will obviously make them uncomfortable. Class dismissed.

[tbhkelly]

We went to the movies on a cold, wintry Sunday night

You were giggling at the screen and I’ll admit, I couldn’t stop looking at you

Out of the corner of my eye, your genuine laugh, happiness spread all over my body

When you grabbed my hand I felt my heart beating faster

Until I realized that it was the most comfortable feeling I’ve ever felt

It felt like our hands became one and I wasn’t preoccupied by my cold fingers

Your hands were warm and I never wanted to let go

So whenever you get scared and want to turn away

Because you think I’ll find something or someone better, more worth my time

Remember that I’ve never felt so at home when I was holding someone else

Remember that I think about you at random, often points throughout the day when something reminds me of you

The color red, your favorite movie, apple pie and how much you love it

And these collection of moments are something bigger than I’ve ever felt

Remember that I’m falling in love with you

[tbhkelly]

Seeing all of this snow on the ground REALLY makes me miss summer like I don’t understand how winter can be people’s favorite season?

[tbhkelly]

I've been alive for too many years to care so much about such irrelevant things like that is my secret to giving less shits is literally why waste the energy, if I keep this up I'll have a heart attack by age 22

[tbhkelly]

You only learn what love is once you lose it

[tbhkelly]

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