#thursday625

[douliette]

GET TO KNOW ME

Rules: Tag 20 are you insane HOW MANY AS YOU’D LIKE OKAY followers you want to get to know better

Tagged by drawminblue (you’re lucky I saw that tbh xD)

Name: Juliette

Nickname: Juju, Ju (cause my friends are LAZY FUCKS), Douliette, Djouliette, Mum/maman/eomma, mamie (french for grandma)... ... uuuuh.. also things with butt in it probably.

Star sign: Gemini

Gender: F

Height: 155 cm

Favorite Color: rainbows. or if separated colors, everything but yellow, yellowish oranges, yellowish greens and most browns. (though I can accept warm, reddish or purplish browns) (yes I’m a color freak)

Time right now: 1:46 AM HAHA

Average hours of sleep: if work day, around 7, if offday, between 8 and 12

Lucky number: uuuuuuuh... Not yellow.

Last thing I googled: TER (french regional train) schedules 

Number of blankets: one comforter, one blanket in winter

Favorite fictional character: just ONE? DO YOU WANT ME DEAD??? I’ll give you all the ones I love and can think of OK START Hermione, Fred & Georges, Fidelma of Cashel, Andy Dwyer, Leslie Knope, FFIX’s Vivi, EVERYONE FROM STEVEN UNIVERSE, Zuko, Toph, FitzChivalry, The Fool/Beloved, Nighteyes, actually everyone from parks & rec, who do I love I LOVE CLOUD AND TIfA AND NANAKI and and Thranduil and uuuuuuuuh aGENT CARTER AND OH ORORO an I ove Ororo AND KYO SOMA omg and Momiji and I need to stop. NO AIT COMMANDER SAMUEL VIMES. Also Poussey.

I FOGOT GRIMMJOW HOW DARE I

Favorite famous people: Super Junior, Amy Poelher, Chris Pratt, JK Rowling, Terry Pratchett, Robin Hobb, Agatha Christie, Benedict Cucumberbatch, Kim Soohyun, Kanjani8, I don’t even know WHO DO I LIKE???? FT island. Do I have any French person I like?...???.......????? Brigitte Fontaine. LAVERNE COX!!

Crushes: cheese. (Hi I’m very aro) (and French) 

Favorite books: how. OKAY FINE. The Harry potter series. Each and every Terry Pratchett book. The Farseer Trilogy, The Liveship traders trilogy, the Tawny Man trilogy, The Rainwild Chronicles aDN OH MY GOd SHE WROTE A NEW BOOK ALREADY OMFG I NEED IT I’m not crying you’re crying Also. Most of the Agatha Christie, and I READ A LOT DAMMIT HOW CAN I CHOOSE Also Fruits Basket best manga ever, Bleach (I’m Grimmjow trash not sorry), One Piece, and I’ll. stop. here. stop it Juliette.

Favorite Bands/Music: QUEEN. Super Junior. FT Island. Two Steps From Hell. Rebecca Sugar. Kanjani 8. LYN.... and many more

Dream Trip: Korea with Eli, New York, the HP studios in London, and the thing HP I will not name in the US (bcs jealousy), Japan, Kenya (bcs THE ANIMALS.)...

Dream Job: eeeeeeh... idek. I want to open a coffee shop?

What I’m wearing at the moment: an oversized QUEEN shirt, and panties with little owls all over. 

I tag @elirian, thursday625, dakohyeah and whoever wants in because I’m an annoying littke prick. also it’s 2am and I am still not calm I WANT MY NEW ROBIN HOBB BOOK NOW I NEED IT so if I forgot you I’M SORRY ;A;

[lyesam]

thursday625 replied to your post: was 2009 just collectively a bad year ...

I’ve actually asked many people this and they all say yes.

it's a thing! it's just so weird??

[thursday625]

Life update

For anyone interested.

I started the application for grad school this week. It's been 13 years since I graduated from college. It's a little terrifying. negl. I am applying for a Master of Arts in Teaching. I have been debating whether or not I should do just plain English or TESOL, but I can do English with a TESOL endorsement, so I think that is the route I am going to go. I am not yet at a place where I can leave the country to teach. But there is ample opportunity here for teaching english as a second language if I decide that's what I want. 

Here's the thing about getting divorced. I need a way to support myself and my children so I don't have to live with my parents. My ex is a teacher and he gives us what he can, but it's not enough for us to do much more than buy groceries and pay my small rent. My part time job pays for the extras like clothes and shoes and such. Things have been massively tense around here the last few weeks. And all the issues I had in the past with my family have all come bursting to the surface in my own soul. Things i had convinced myself weren't true, well, I am finding that I was right all along. And it's painful. And my children are miserable. Some of that is their own fault. Some of it isn't.

It's probably a good thing I have had several years to process the grief of the ending of my marriage. If I were having to do that as well as deal with my parents and children, I would probably not be well. As it is, there are days where I am not sure I can make it, but I have been in survival mode so long, I don't know how to live any other way. 

I still need to process the abuse. I don;t know if I ever will ever be able to properly do that. It was so subtle over such a long period of time. I have no idea of the truth of myself. My parents are not helping. At this point there are days I'd rather be back with my ex since I am used to ignoring him. But hearing the same words from my parents mouths has taken down what little sense of self respect I had managed to build up since January. I do not know what is true any more. And if I am the person they all believe me to be, well, then, I am basically worthless.

I am not yet to the point where I believe that. 

My daughter is poised to fail the fifth grade and no one can figure out why she has decided to quit trying(it started before we were separated). she is very smart, she has plenty of testing to prove so, but she refuses to turn in her homework even if she has completed it. I know a lot of it is her looking for attention, but there comes a point in everyone's life where they have to learn to take responsibility for their actions and I am afraid she is reaching that point. If she scores well on her state testing next week she may be able to pass. We will have to wait and see. And on top of all that she needs a root canal and a crown on one of her teeth. sigh. 

My parents keep telling me I need to make my kids respect me, but they have spent their entire lives watching their father disrespect me. and now they are witnessing my parents do the same. I cannot make them respect me if no one else does.

So, to sum up. My life sucks right now. But! I am taking baby steps in taking back my life. I have been talking about going back to school forever, and I am finally actually applying instead of just talking about it. This makes me happy. And I have you guys. My fandom friends remain the glue that keeps me together. I don't know what i would do without you all. 

[douliette]

thursday625 said: that’s ridiculous. People need to find better hobbies. or perhaps, get laid.

I KNOOOOOW DDD:

[douliette]

OH WOW OK IF YOU WANT TO ANSWER BE MY GYUEST I FORGOT EVERYONE'S URL I LIKE YOU ALL I'M SORRY

Tagged by ELI

Rule One: Post the Rules

Rule Two: Answer the Questions the tagger asked you then make 11 news ones (also tag the tagger)

Rule Three: Tag 11 people and link them to your post

Rule Four: Let them know that you’ve tagged them

1. What’s one of the scariest things you’ve ever done?

Making grown up calls/Asking store people for stuff/having to take the train CAUSE WHAT IF I MISS MY STOP.

2. If you could choose to see a glimpse of your future, would you?

NAH BECAUSE WHAT IF BECAUSE I SAW IT IT NEVER HAPPENS AAAAAAAH

3. If you could live in a fantasy world, which one would you like to live in and why? (Harry Potter, Tolkien, World of Darkness, etc.)

Harry freacking Potter because that's like my childhood I'm already 500% comfy in it.

4. What’s your favorite scent?

Raspberry

5. What embarrasses you?

Everything about myself? er... When I mess things up until I get a chance to fix it D:

6. Would you rather be hated or forgotten?

HATED because I STILL HAVE POWER OVER YOU HAAAAHAHAHAAA

7. What’s your least favorite kind of food? (A type you still eat, but you’d rather have something else)

salad D: as in that stuff with the green leaf I ATE TOO MUCH OF THAT

8. What’s something most people don’t know about you?

I have the social abilities of an awkward and low-self-esteem teen

9. Would you kill an innocent person if you thought it might mean saving a dozen other people?

I probably would but I wouldn't tell the others because that's my thing to bear (HAHA) and then I'd probably live very unhealthily and unhappily because of the guilt and the shame. (or get a god complex)

10. What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

I NEVER GET ANYTHING idk any compliment if sincere is the best because WOOT LOW SELF CONFIDENCE

11. Chocolate or vanilla?

CHOCOLATE

My questions!

1. If you had to leave everything and move to a new country where would it be? WHY?

2. What is your secret ingredient (aka that thing you put in everything you cook/bake -or at least you try to-)?

3. If you won a large sum of money what would the very first thing you'd do with it?

4. Favorite moment of the day?

5. You win an endless amount of your favorite thing until you die. What is it?

6. You'd rather get an animal from a shelter or a brand *new* puppy/kitty/whatever?

7. If I handed you a piece of French cheese with cherry jam, would you try it?

8. Tests during early stage of pregnancy show the baby has an illness that will handicap him all his life. The doctor asks you if you want to get an abortion. Would you? Why?

9. How fast do you give your trust to people?

10. Something you think is wrong with you but people look at you like you're craycray if you mention it?

11. I'M OUT OF QUESTIONS GDI if you're veeery sick and you have a great chance not to survive it (cancer..) would you want your family/the doctors to tell you or not?

[lyesam]

thursday625 said: this is exactly what i thought. i haven’t made it past the second episode yet, though. This show is entertaining but I don't understand WHY DO THEY KEEP MAKING SUCH BAD CHOICES

[imaynotloveyou]

thursday625 hat deine Frage beantwortet: drama watch list 07/2013

I hear your voice is amazing. you won’t regret it. School 2013 is also good. I’m sad too about Itazura Na Kiss ending :(

ikr! I feel like... there are still so many things that need to happen but there are only two episodes left at this point - how fast did the time fly??

I'll definitely pick up I hear you voice, people keep mentioning it. And School 2013 seems to have been so amazing, I'm somewhat saving it for worse times :)

Thank you!

[lyesam]

…i was tagged

  The Rules

1. Replace questions I was given with the ones I wrote and answer them

2. Write 11 new questions beneath your answers

3. Tag 11 people

4. Let them know that you tagged them

Questions Given:

1) what outfit do you find a guy/girl most attractive in?

Girl's when they wear stockings and skirts asdfadsg

2) if you can learn another language fully within a week what will it be?

Maybe Russian? Just because it sounds so awesome.

3) do you like potatoes?

YES

4) if you can be any animal for a day what would it be?

A bird or something that can fly because that'd be pretty chill.

5) if you can be any celebrity who would it be?

Jensen fucking Ackles so I can stare at myself all day and kiss Misha's ear and some cute shit.

6) one thing you can change throughout history what will it be?

Uh... I actually have no idea... too many things, can't choose one.

7) what is the one superpower you really want?

Time travel, aw yeahh

8) would you rather attend the wedding of your otp or get their sex tape

Sex tape. No doubt. You can rewatch that shit.

9) what is the most life changing thing you have witnessed, read, or touched?

Probably Long Way Round with Ewan McGregor and Charlie, I dunno that just hit my heart with a baseball and really made me think.

10) what’s your favorite year of school?

Year 11. I actually did well and enjoyed myself.

11) if you can be any greek god/goddess what will it be?

I know like 1 greek god and that is Zeus so I will be Zeus. Questions: 1) Who do you look up to?

2) If you could go anywhere you wanted to right now, where would it be?

3) What's your favourite band/singer and song?

4) How old do you want to live to be?

5) What's the most meaningful thing you've received? 

6) What about yourself bothers you the most?

7) What about others bothers you the most?

8) If you could be anyone you wanted, who would you be?

9) What do you want most in the world?

10) Ultimate OTP and why?

11) When was the last time you cried and why?