#timetochange

[go-erika-bost-world]

#venividivici ✌🏻 #changeinlife #changeintheair #changing #timetochange #timetochoose #timetoact #me #selfietime #selfie https://www.instagram.com/p/CWwAq9QLuGP/?utm_medium=tumblr

[humanitarian-death]

Wait for change 👸

[darlenecbd]

Cool Announcement Tomorrow #shorts

youronefunnelaway

[unbrokenpersonality]

[clazzag]

Day One - 2nd January 2021

Ok so this is me, and yes I realise I look terrible but I am trying to jump start myself into doing something. If I post to whoever is out there I feel it will give me extra incentive to keep on track. This is the first day of the rest of my life. Alcohol is making me miserable. I drank half a centimeter off a whole bottle of Cognac on New Years Eve plus 2 glasses of Prosecco, a few cans of lager and a couple of glasses of Whiskey and the day after hardly had a hangover. This is not a good place to be, I should not be able to consume so much alcohol and be fine, that is not normal. I am the biggest I have ever been, not that I am worried about my size, but for my arthritis in my knees and my back I need to get some off. My skin in terrible, blotches, creases, redness and some sort of issue round my nose.

I have decided to give up alcohol until at least April, maybe for a year. I am going to eat a lot more healthily, which means maybe a take away once a month as a payday treat, and continue with my exercise with Kelly (my personal trainer). Hopefully after a few months, maybe March, start the couch to 5 k again.

I have had enough of feeling like crap physically everyday and I am the only person who can do anything about it.

Please no nasty comments... I am not interested... this is about pushing myself and feeling better physically and mentally.

Any help, questions or encouragement gratefully received ❤️

[greenjellofuneralpotaotesme]

[altrovemanonqui]

Sembra che alla fine riuscirò a partire. Forse ci vorrà ancora una settimana o due ma riuscirò a rimettermi in carreggiata, a perseguire la scelta (forse sopravvalutata) fatta mesi fa di poter ricominciare a vivere da un'altra parte. Lontano da qui. Lontanissimo da qui.

Da quando l'ho saputo ho un peso sul petto. Un senso nausea. E la tachicardia. Non credo sia paura. O forse si. Dare un nome alle cose ha davvero mai aiutato qualcuno a capirle?

Quindi adesso sto cosi. Ad organizzare questa cosa...con la voglia di farcela e una strizza che non ve lo so dire.

Vorrei fumare. Ma non ho un cazzo da fumare.

Insomma, uscirò finalmente di casa solo che in questa mia, piccola meravigliosa casa non so quando ci ritornerò.

Ma va bene. È cosi che doveva andare. E tutti questi blocchi psicologici che adesso spuntano come funghi all orizzonte non potranno fermarmi...

Coraggio Elena. Non potranno fermarti.

[reallyjuststealingmemes]

it’s really scary growing up in the world as a teenager and realizing that the governments really don’t give a shit about climate change and that you and your children have been robbed of a lifetime and sentenced to die within the next 30 years