#to noah

[orbital-vessel]

Alright,

*Well, Fuck.*

I'd been avoiding writing this letter, I will not lie to you. Not for a lack of want to.

I'm in love with you. That's the long and the short of it.

I didn't have time to tell you. I didn't have time to articulate it, if I'm being honest with myself.

We were gone before I had time. And I thought about pulling you through. But I couldn't justify it. You'd not be happy. I can't even say that you are happy when Connor did it on accident.

*But I'm happy to see you. I am so happy to see you.*

[some-mad-lunge]

Realistically it wouldn’t make sense for ANY of the Dingles to side with Debbie on this, save maybe Charity as her mom. None of them really had much of anything to do with Joe outside of him trying to ruin their lives, so if suddenly a bunch of them are all vehement that it’s a tragedy he’s dead and Cain’s a monster for hurting poor sweet Joe who just wanted to marry Debbie I’m going to call bullshit. This is a stupid catalyst for a Dingle feud, it doesn’t even affect most of them at all

The only one is Charity.

Because Debbie isn’t Noah so therefore entitled to some of Charity’s attention.

[joshodun]

Hello? emuproblems? Did you pass out? I'm awaiting your response.

[joshodun]

emuproblems Honestly

[joshodun]

emuproblems Thank you for eating ass....

[thenbsquiggle]

Buddy,

You looked at me today and told me about your "super sick hat trick". Not that I'm shocked you got it. At all. Three days under the same roof and its the first time we've gone that long without talking. It's hard. I don't like it. But I love you and I'll give you the space that you need. I can't wait to watch you score tomorrow. I love you a lot Noah James. Chin up.

[thenbsquiggle]

Buddy,

You know that I think that the entire world revolves around you? The amount of times that you have cheered me up without even knowing why I was upset is huge. But you know why I spent all those nights locked up in my room and fighting with mom and dad. Now you know why I've been in my room so much or why I'm hardly ever home these days. I'm so sorry that you're hurting. I'm sorry that you're angry and upset. Its killing me to see you like this. Its killing me that you won't even look my way, but when you do look at me its just to yell. I hope that someday my little boy is like you. Tied to his convictions, loving endlessly and bold with what he believes in. I know that you're saying what you're saying out of love. I see that. I need you to know that I love you a lot and that I am sorry that this is the reality we find ourselves in. But buddy, I am gay. It isn't a choice. It isn't caused by my past. I just like girls. A lot. I like a girl. A lot. I love you Noah James. Chin up. Even if it means ignoring me for a while, chin up.