the pandemic has left a lot of time&space for me to sit with myself & my thoughts. a lot of time&space to figure out the things&people I want,need,deserve in my life. &those that I def do not. I want a friend that puts in the effort towards our friendship just as much as I do (maybe even more? a girl can dream you know). I need a friend that checks in on me even when I seem,look,act fine. I deserve a friend that values me, as I am. so this is our goodbye. goodbye to the friend that does not check any of those boxes. i do not want,need,deserve, the nothingness you are giving me. but I do want,need,deserve to stop thinking today will be different. I do want,need,deserve to move on.