As he sits at that table, leader only in (Aimsey's) spirit, it hits Seapeekay that no one pays attention to him.
And he does not mean it in a whiny way -- although, hey, Aimsey could leave him with a little less enthusiasm when Ros is near -- it is just factual.
People look at him, talk to him, then when the conversation is over he slips their mind like water.
Sneeg talks about wardens and curses and talks about his and Aimsey's strange connection.
People talk about power and they mention the Archmage, or the fantastical machines.
People talk about keepers and corruption and games and contracts. They say Krow and Pili and Bad and Ros.
They forget he killed the warden and has been hearing its calls ever since. They forget he has mastered the martial arts. They forget the Keepers gathered to restore his soul in broad daylight, that he has been told his time is not yet right.
No one has said it outloud yet, but he can hear them all thinking. There is no way he is indispensable to the Teal Titans. Aimsey only picked him because they were too humble, too selfless to pick themselves. He was a friendship pick.
To be fair to everyone though, it is pretty funny how they lament Aimsey and then jest how he is so lucky for being so unimportant. He jokes along, of course, but it is far from the truth:
He escaped oblivion purely because of Aimsey's destructive selflessness. Because to Aimsey he might actually be invaluable to the faction. Or not, but they would still rather die than condemn him, or anyone else.
Aimsey will come back anyway. He always does. And they will sit at yet another balcony and Aimsey will be spiralling and then he will crack a completely tonedeaf joke and Aimsey will punch him in the arm but inevitable snort and then they will go and do something stupid like imitate people in the worst ways until they are laughing so hard they can barely breathe.
Yeah. If not for Aimsey's heart, he would be... he would not be. Because while the faction would not stand without Aimsey, Aimsey would not stand without him. So when asked who was instrumental in a faction's existence, Aimsey convictedly and truthfully said his name.
No Aimsey without him, no him without Aimsey.
Two sides of the same coin, but people only ever look at heads.
Maybe he should do something about that. Not like, seperating him from Aimsey. He would not care. They would try and kill him personally.
No, he means flaunting his power a little. Blowing up Tubbo did not do a lot for him, being played mostly for jokes -- once again proving his point. So maybe someone people actually care about. But then again, it might not matter at all. Killing a warden in one-to-one combat seemed as big a powerplay one could make without going after certain people and that has not left a lasting impression at all.
Maybe he should kill Aimsey when they return. That would most certainly make some waves.
The thought makes him chuckle, but the table is to busy arguing to notice him. He is not harming Aimsey. Over everyone elses' dead bodies.
Anyway, one of these days he is killing someone, that much he does know. He will mull it over, the coming days.
And who knows, the opportunity might just present itself, because he has no doubt they are heading for a big storm.
He tunes back into the conversation at that table and considers telling them how he has heard the dragon's roar.
There is great power at the edge of consciousness.