Not even two weeks in and we had our first crisis so to speak where my little guy caught a common cold..but with trach kids, a common cold can be very dangerous. I got a taste of that last night. It rocked my world and I’m now staring down at almost 44hrs awake. I am exhausted..but A is safe and ok in the hospital. A million scenarios replayed in my mind on how I could have done things differently, but the hospital said I did everything the right away. Then twice today his trach came out at the hospital which I was the first to catch and put back in. This in itself gave me the boost I needed to remind myself that I can do this with Gods help. I got to go home for the evening to be with the rest of the kids then head back to the hospital tomorrow to be with A. I’m thankful for Starbucks hot drinks to make a hard day not so bad( their chai tea is the best). I’m thankful for makeup to cover the circles and sagging face I feel right now. I’m thankful to children’s for watching A tonight so I can get some rest. Thankful to my parents for coming over at midnight to stay with my kids while I followed ems to the er then to children’s. Most importantly, I’m thankful to God for helping us get through the first medical crisis, reminding me today He has my back. This fostering medical kids can be insane but I have to remind myself that if A was biologically mind, I would do the exact same thing..have him home to care for. So even though we aren’t blood, I am his family until his family can step back in. So even though I feel tired and worn, I know tomorrow is a new day with new strength..so for now I will rest in Jesus’s arms. #fostercare #medicallyfragile #singleparenting #specialneedsmom #trachlife #trustingod #strengthinweakness https://www.instagram.com/p/BtHn4b_laNr/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=xb6qhjslo1m8