By God, Dad, I'm trying, trying to gather the courage, trying to remember your words, which do not relent and continue to sear like the bark-stripped branches of the lemon tree. And I can no longer find in me the strength, am incapable of convincing myself of struggle for the sake of struggle rather than the outright pursuit of victory. I cannot understand the significance of pride, cannot internalize the meaning of honor, of which you spoke during all those years. Only the power of flight and defeat can I comprehend.
Track Changes by Sayed Kashua (2020)

















