#tram thoughts

[dr-skazka]

Does anyone else ever wonder what kinda headcanons people have about you?

I randomly thought about it in the tram earlier- like "Damn... I wonder what the little people in my phone headcanon about me.."

[ananke-xiii]

So these are just memory-based, impromptu thoughts but I want to write them down as a starting point for when I'll finally write about Julia Wright and Jesse Turner.

I've said that I don't really like the general vibe of S14 regarding Jack because I feel like the story heavily relies on a false dichotomy that I don't personally find compelling. I'm talking about the trite "good vs evil"/"nature vs nurture" dilemma. The presence of evil is posited as an unquestionable presence while good is only present via its absence. By paralleling Jack with Nick the story implies that Jack is both evil by default (because of Lucifer's influence) and he can't do anything about it because he ultimately depletes his soul, the last symbol of human choice, to help his family out and to fix his mistakes.

Jack's story reaches its climax when he accidentally kills Mary and Cas says that what happened was due to "the absence of good". I think that it's a good summary of the whole season.

I'm absolutely not advocating for a real "good vs evil" dichotomy because that would be even more boring, but I just want to point out the unfairness of it all and how it flattens Jack out as a character: if you tell me that he's evil from the start but you also remove that one thing that could've created real conflict then you're basically saying that this character cannot change. And if he cannot change how should we understand his story? Or, to be more honest, how should we find it interesting?

So, of course, I've tried another way.

Although I still stand by all this, I also have to admit that not only does Jack tick all the items off the "Evil/Monstrous Child" trope list but he also happens to be a good Antichrist figure. In a way, he couldn't "only" be a Nephilim, he also had to be inherently connected with Lucifer and The Evil because he was written, I think, having in mind a conflation of the lore about the Antichrist, the Nephilims and their respective connections to the biblical/christian concept of World Ending.

So this got me thinking about all the ways in which Jack's an Antichrist figure and how it relates to the Alternate World where Apocalypse did very much happen. Not only does he help fighting that specific war but his birth is also precisely what opens the rift to a world where Apocalypse is sort of an on-going thing.

I was deep into my musings and speculations when I realized that, while this justification serves to make Jack a more distinct character, more disentangled from his father'/family' s looming presence and with his own individual attributes, it still doesn't free him from the comparison with another character: Christ.

For all its creative usage of God, SPN has always been careful when it comes to the other son of God, at least according to Christianity. Apart from the archangels and the angels, in the world of SPN God's son is the one&only Lucifer.

I don't know how to interpret this but even if I want to see Jack in this light I'm still not free from the above-mentioned false dichotomy: the "anti" part of "Antichrist" is very clear and very present, thank you very much, however, it's the Christ part that's still... absent.

If the absence of good left Jack to face his only other alternative (the certainty of evil), the absence of Christ leaves Jack with the only possible choice: he has to become Christ as well. This puts Jack in the uncomfortable position of being both the Antichrist and the Christ in a way that doesn't result in a unity between two antithetic parts but as a way to sacrifice what he certainly is (the Antichrist) for who he is not (Christ).

The moment Jack "chooses" to save humanity he's actually going against the very reason he was brought into the world for: to end it. This should settle the issue, right? Jack is actually free to choose? Well, I don't know.

For the narrative Jack can only be either Lucifer or Christ: the first is Bad and Sure, the second is Good but Absent so in order to be good, to make good present and manifest, Jack must kill who the story tells us from the start that he must be, someone who cannot change: in other words, in order to be good Jack must be willing to sacrifice his (supposedly) Evil Self, he "must" kill himself.

I feel like, although in different terms, this is the same route the show went with Dean and, as you probably know, I find that route very problematic.

[wefoundpatkaland]

I can’t express with words how much Taylor means to me. She has always been by my side and I just jdjekdjwkwowowonwjsiw, I think the only proper way to show how much I love her and admire her is KDKEKWMDNSKWOWOKANSKSOWOWJDNXKDOWPWWPMDJXIDJDJEKWLSKKSKW

And she does so much to you guys, she really is out there inviting 500 fans to her homes and trying to notice as many of you as possible. She’s one of a kind. She loves us all as much as we love her and we should really appreciate it ❣️

[littlechilllarrie]

Is there a fic out there in which Harry is a self employed stylist and his business card reads 'Hair styles by Harry styles'. Is that a thing? And if not ... WHY the fuck not?

[gerrikellmans]

🗣️ CAUSE YOU LIKE MY HAIR AND MY RIPPED UP JEANS, YOU LIKE THE BAD GIRL I GOT IN ME! 🙄 SHE’S ON YOUR MIND LIKE ALL THE TIME, BUT I GOT A TATTOO FOR US LAST WEEK ❤️‍🩹 EVEN GOOD BOYS BLEED… HOW BAD, BAD DO U WANT ME?…❤️

[christ-on-a-gondala]

Having friends that you don't always talk to are so chill because you can just talk to them and you don't feel like a dick for not talking because they're chill. I love my friends

[regalhart]

Trista is my absolute favourite like honestly there’s probably no one else I’ve ever met who I literally care about sO MUCH and it sucks that she lives so far away I’m so sad

[badpisces]

I must... I must... I must wear that puffer vest