#trans rants

[bigbossterone]

Being both gay and trans is kinda fucking beautiful. Realizing I was the former has genuinely helped me to become a better man, I finally found a facet of my queerness that I could feel pride in, my identity is built on a sheer love of masculinity. I love men. I love being a man. I love being in love with my man. I love taking poorly lit gym pics for him and leaving my boots next to his. I'm so grateful I live in a time where I don't have to remain trapped in a female body and I count down the days until I can break out of it once and for all. Life is bittersweet.

[diasteny]

Rants About the Way We Talk About Gender

It really is very funny how, instead of actually engaging with trans readings of media (and how, sometimes, certain readings can discourage the fluidity of gender expressions that we should encourage), online people will resort to a snarky comeback. Darling, trans readings and headcanons and interpretations are all well and good (and should be encouraged) but when we superimpose gender nonconformity and nonbinary gender onto a character simply for expressing their gender in a non-normative way, how are we doing anything other than further cementing a gendered binary?

[theuniverseisforgetting]

FUCK THIS!! fuuuuuckk!! Why couldn’t I have just been raised as a boy child? WHy did I have to grow up as a girl? Why was I BORN as a girl? This is F U C K E D. Ma’am, where the fuck is the T? Where is the punchline of my big anime titties? What if I could just AirDrop my titties to the trans girls? Who want’s these big balonka honkers???

[corvuscw]

Realtalk.

I'm only saying this here because no one that knows me personally sees my tumblr and I don't have a therapist so I gotta say this somewhere-

but why does admitting to the idea that I might be nonbinary feel like a failure?

Like I failed at being female, I failed at being male, now I have to come to terms with the fact that I was and never will be either and it feels like I failed some big quest even though my life has barely even begun.

This is bullshit.

I'm so tired.

[boyinjeans]

can i rant? about how upset i am? that i look like this?

sure i’m a pretty girl, but fuck i am so fucking ugly. i am so dysphoric all the time. because i’m not a girl. i’m not! i like “girly” clothes and makeup, yeah, sure, but fucking! i hate being a girl! but i’m stuck like this forever! i look like this

and i want nothing more than to look like this

will i ever look like that? no. and i’m fucking pissed about it!

i’m gonna be in the closet forever! i’m never gonna pass! never gonna be who i wanna be! might die! fucking i don’t know

i want a flat chest and i wanna be thin and i want a masculine face and i wanna be able to pass and still have long hair and. fuck.

i don’t know! i need help. i just want. i need. I JUST. now. i fucking hate myself.

[coyotegoth]

ngl I'm pretty upset at how painfully slow my transition is going

[kingofsmalldeath]

My favorite thing about how oblivious cis people are is that i very openly talk about wanting top surgery when i'm with my family and it still doesn't cross their minds that hey maybe it's not that i dislike breasts, maybe i just dislike the association they have with femininity and that i am seen as a female for having them, and that no it's not an aesthetic choice, it's a mental health and care choice, and maybe, just maybe i want to have this medical procedure because i am a trans person, like it's not even a possibility in their minds, they just assume I'm gonna spend this money and undergo another surgery for aesthetics like??? wild

[coyotegoth]

I ordered a faux septum ring bc I think they’re cute but I’m too chicken to get the real deal (and my mom would kill me if she found out??) and I’m v excited

I love jewelry and painting my nails and stuff like that but sometimes I feel bad abt wearing it bc doing “feminine” things when I hardly ever pass for “male” as it is. but I’m trying to get over that this year with me starting t and all. I wanna let myself be kinda femme every now and then. it’s more fun