Oct 6, 2016
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What is The Wish?
As a kid, I would ask my mom to pop in the VHS for Disney’s Cinderella movie just for the song “A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes.” It was and is beautiful; almost like a lullaby. It not only ensured my future love of Jazz, but was also so very, inexplicably comforting to my young heart.
When I would later face tough times, I would sing that song to myself and feel a little more hope. As time went by though, I wondered, what is THE wish my heart makes? I wondered if it was the wish that, deep down, everyone makes. I finally concluded that it is. Everyone makes this wish, THE wish, to be loved.
Like so many generations of women who grew up on Disney movies, I’m learning that if you don’t love yourself first, you won’t end up living “happily ever after,” period; let alone with your prince charming (see later posts about leaving my husband a few months ago and taking up residence in my mother’s basement). So this blog was created to explore and discover my history, my family patterns, and to chronicle my spiritual, mental, and physical transformational process into someone who gives myself unconditional love.
I plan to be real. I’m not holding anything back. I warn you now, some parts are not remotely pretty. Yes, I started off with a Disney reference, but trust me: my life, though surround sound, is not digitally enhanced. However, I hope you will still take the journey with me. I also hope that I’m contributing something to the internet that will reach the people who might need it, and maybe touch someone’s life for the better. Because of what I plan to share, I have to remain anonymous. Names will be changed, not only to protect the innocent, but to avoid the drama.
If you’ve made it to the end, I thank you for reading. I wish you well.
Feel great!
I woke up at 5.30am this morning... my fault for going to bed pretty early. So I was up before my kids and up for hours before I went to the gym.
I was pretty excited to go to the gym :)
Walked there and back so i sis about 8km of walking today. Got to train with Pierre again today, it was pretty full on, when we started he asked me if I was sore from the other, I was like "nope" so I was hoping that we would have a session where I WOULD be sore, otherwise it's not worth it, I don't feel like I am working hard enough!
The session was pretty full on and I left there with my legs trembling and almost collapsing! :)
So I felt good about all of that! :)
Start of school holidays next week... going to try and find someone to look after bastian while I go to the gym...hope i can find someone! :) I hate school holidays, mainly because i have to change my routine... i like routine! :)
But i am looking forward to training with stuart again! :)
The book...
So yesterday I went into the gym really excited because I knew that I was going to get my book for the transformation challenge, I rushed in and took the book off of Stuart. I was so excited! We couldn't do the stairmaster yesterday because it was broke.. (what a shame lol) So I went on the rowing machine for a bit till my back started to hurt then I stopped and went to do weights. First Stuart wanted me to do 30 bench press without stopping, then 50 but i kept stopping. I kept thinking that he thinks too much of me sometimes.. but the fact is that I gave up, kept putting myself down and listened to the little guy in my head that said I couldn't do it.. and it put me down for the rest of the day. So that needs to change.
Yesterday I got some D-Fine8 from ASN, saw Ben there, he was at the seminar on monday. He told me to take it twice a day when I train and once when I am not training. I'm going to have some on the way to group training this morning :)
i woke up a little bit sick but in an awesome mood. Today is the day, the first day of the fenix transformation challenge, and I am really excited. This weekend (after I have done some studying because I have a test that needs to be done by sunday night) I am going to be writing down all of my goals... otherwise along the track i am just going to forget what I am doing this for. Gotta keep everything in focus.
So I am excited about going to group training this morning, rain, shine, muddy or not... BRING IT ON!