#transmisogyny folder

[ysheall]

"I hope u know when I say dude I mean it in the gender neutral sense"

I'm not gender neutral !!

"yeah but dude can apply to anyone"

not nearly enough !!!

it is actually so transmisogynistic that ppl are just allowed to tell me how to feel about being referred to with masculine terms ! please just once think about the fact that this doesn't go both ways ??

"what about calling guys babygirl-"

men have fully conscious reactions to babygirl and are fully allowed to, it is not the same. as soon as I make a sour face at being called "dude" or "a little guy" the FIRST thought people have is to tell me why they aren't wrong for misgendering me.

rant over, mental image of me gasping for air go.

[ysheall]

im so tired of talking. im so tired of trying to talk. I've been noticing myself going nonverbal more and more lately and it's because Just Why. I don't have anybody to talk to about anything, most of my friends are so dismissive of everything I say. "hey I'm rly struggling with this/that" either falls on deaf ears or is met with the same sympathy a sidewalk might show u on faceplanting into it. I don't have a therapist anymore, I don't have any semblance of platform where ppl will fucking hear me. im sick of feeling so lonely, I'm lonely when I'm alone I'm lonely in crowds I'm lonely with my friends. I have nowhere to go nobody to talk to and nothing at all.

[ysheall]

every time. someone says 'welcome to womanhood'. to me. I cough blood

I have always been a woman

"y yeah b but I mean that in the sense that ppl are not treating u as a ma—"

i was never treated as a man, even pre transition everybody noticed that invisible thing that made me 'different'. sure the doctor didn't blame everything on my period then, but really nothing has changed.

[ysheall]

a huge part of being a woman is people not believing u when u say that u know how to use a semicolon