PICK A CARD: Your biggest downfall if you don't change course right now (life-sabotaging)
Hello and welcome to this post of mine! In here I will give you a reading on what your biggest downfall is going to be if you don’t change your course right now. I hope you enjoy and find this useful!
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Pile 1:
You are going to be too kind to yourself and it will be your undoing. Not the healthy kind of kindness that allows for rest and recovery but the soft kind that justifies retreat and slacking off. You have already begun to believe the lie that you cannot handle it in the moment and that belief is the most dangerous tool you possess right now. Every time a challenge rises, every time the work gets heavy or the path gets steep, your first instinct is no longer to push through but to gently tell yourself that ‘it is okay darling, you deserve a break you have worked so hard’. And maybe you have worked hard, but you are using that past effort as a cushion to avoid present struggle. You are choosing the gentle immediate relief over the harsh but necessary long-term gain. This is how you will forget how to push yourself. You trade the future you genuinely want for the easy five minutes of not feeling stress or discomfort right now. You confuse comfort with safety and you wrap yourself in a protective layer of excuses. ‘I am burnt out’ you whisper when you are merely faced with something difficult. ‘I need to prioritise my mental health’ you claim when what you actually need is to focus and finish the work you started. This self-pity this gentle, constant coddling will cause you to slowly but surely coast right past every, single opportunity to grow. You are creating a life where you only tolerate ease and you are becoming allergic to resistance, and resistance is the only fertiliser for growth. You are not protecting yourself from failure, you are ensuring it by refusing to engage with the possibility of success (which always demands a certain amount of discomfort). You will wake up one day and realise that the things you wished to achieve are still just wishes because the moment of discomfort always seemed easier to postpone than to tackle.
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Pile 2:
The biggest problem that is coming is that you are going to fall for the first person who actually sees you or pretends to do so. You are walking around with a huge gaping hole in your chest where self acceptance should be, and you think that hole can only be filled by external validation. You keep telling yourself you are waiting for a true, honest connection but you know the truth is you are waiting for a distraction. You are so starved for attention, you are so absolutely desperate to feel important to someone that you have lowered your standards down to Hell. Someone is going to come along, someone completely wrong and they are going to notice you. They are going to tell you everything you want to hear. They will call you smart, beautiful, unique and they will make you feel like you are the most important person in the whole world for maybe three weeks. And you will believe them. You will take that empty sugar high of attention, that love-bombing, that over-the-top flattery and you will mistake it for real love. Your mind will say ‘finally I am loved, finally someone realised my worth!’ but the truth is you are just an easy target. That love that attention isn't real it is bait. You will allow them to sweep in and take over your life because your own life feels too heavy to manage on your own. You will give them all the power, because you feel like you do not deserve to hold any power yourself. They will tell you what to wear, who to see, what to think and you will agree because giving up control feels easier than fighting for it. You will know this person is an awful person deep down, you will know their charm is fake, that their compliments are hollow, but you will ignore it because the fear of being alone again is so much worse than the fear of being mistreated.
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Pile 3:
You are going to burn yourself out before you even get close to the things you are aiming for and you know this already, you just choose to ignore it. You are running on pure fear and the absolute belief that if you just stop pushing for even one hour the entire fragile thing you built will collapse, and you will be back where you started. That is the only reason you keep going through the lack of sleep, the constant stomach ache, the way you keep forgetting simple things like apointments or names. You think that if the journey is easy then the goal must not be worth it or worse, that you didn't earn it. You tell yourself that this is the hustle, that this is what it takes to be great in a ‘real’ world but you also know this is absolutely false and not necessary. People who are truly successful, people who get to those impossible places you dream of, they are not operating on a constant cycle of panic and exhaustion. They have systems, they have boundaries, they have sleep and they have things in their life that are not work. But you cannot allow yourself that ease. If you felt ease, if you felt rested and happy, then you would not feel like a champion. Your identity is tied to the struggle. If you are not struggling you are not working and if you are not working, you are failing. It is a constant horrible loop and it means the goal itself is becoming less important than the exhaustion you endure to reach it. The goal keeps changing too because the minute you achieve one thing you panic and set a new more impossible goal that requires even more sacrifice because the true purpose is not arriving; the true purpose is the never ending climb. And you are so tired, you are so close to breaking your body that will be forced you to stop because your mind won't let you.
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