I am praying for this day to come. They say “fake it til you make it”; so, I have been acting like I don’t care what people’s’ opinions of me have been. However, deep inside the anxiety & fear of being made the butt of all the jokes, being criticized & put down because I’m not skinny enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough, not conservative enough, etc have caused a lot of damage to my soul & self-esteem. If I could lose the weight of the burden of self-doubt and self-destruction from my shoulders, I would be in a much better mental space. #tryingtolovemyself #lowselfesteem #losingweightjourney #truthhurts #justwanttobehappy #justwanttobehealthy #findingmyself #over40 #midlifewomen #midlifeawakening (at Painesville, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CFZ5hL-D7YD/?igshid=1tyn5k7329z7i