Thats Bullshit, Sugar | Han Jisung
pairing: bsf!h.j x fem!reader
trope: bsfs to lovers smut
synopsis: after a party goes wrong, a quiet night on the couch turns into an overdue conversation about fear, trust, and firsts. when lines blur between best friends, jisung offers something y/n has never been given before: patience, care, and the space to choose.
w/c: 4.5k
a/n: this is my first time writing a proper smut fic its also the longest fic (i think) ive ever written weirdly enough. im new to this so bare with me and i hope you enjoy. *lowercase is intentional.
c/w: 18+MDNI, NSFW, unprotected sex (wouldnt do that if i were you), oral(f!recieveing), pet names (sugar, baby, princess, good girl, etc.), brief past dv mention.
*fic starts below the cut💋
the room was ridiculously crowded and the air smelled of beer and cheap perfume. the bass of some old 2000’s club music did little to drown out the chatter of party goers and the indiscreet moans of whatever chick was getting railed in the bathroom.
jisung stood behind you groaning, “y/n just tell him already.” jisung was practically pushing you in mingi’s direction.
“ji chill on me! stop!” you swing your body around to stop him from pushing you too close and grab his wrist. not tight enough to hurt him, just firm.
“han jisung, i’m serious. stop.” you pleaded.
“damn. government name. fine y/n jeez. but don't call me that again ouch.” he said yanking his hand back
“sorry ji-“ you looked down to your feet rocking back and forth trying to hide the flush on your face.
although the lighting in the house was dark enough and flooded with colors so he probably wouldna been able to tell anyways. but what he did notice was the rocking. you only did that when you were really really anxious.
“y/n-nie?” he said worried, reaching out to touch your shoulder.
your head snapped up tears threatening to spill. “can we please just…go.”
jisung’s brows knitted together with worry “yea- yea okay lets go.” he took your hand and guided you through the sea of people.
“are you ok?” your best friend asked once you had gotten changed for the night and were lounging on the couch surfing netflix for a movie.
“ yea i’m fine.” you retorted.
jisung knew you well. and he wasn’t the slightest bit convinced.
“bullshit.” he scoffed at you.
“something to share with the class ji?” you said exasperated and trying not to roll your eyes.
“uh yea actually. you were totally freaked out tonight. why?”
“oh i dunno, maybe cause you were pushing me towards mingi like a middle schooler in public.”
“no that's not it.”
you sighed. fingers pinching the bridge of your nose.
“there’s just…no point in trying i guess. i dunno.”
“bullshit again.”
“ji just drop it. seriously, it's not a big deal. you saw my face. you stopped. we left. end of fucking story.”
you weren’t looking at him. you couldn’t. worried he would somehow see right through you. which he did. you just didn’t know it yet.
“no, I'm not gonna drop it. you were practically panicking in there. i wanna know why. cause i know it’s not just because he makes you nervous.”
you muttered under your breath “maybe it’s cause-“
your phone lit up.
incoming call: s.mingi
“just a second.” you held your finger up tossing the remote to jisung so he could keep browsing as you answered the phone.
“hey mingi.”
jisung rolled his eyes as he scrolled but you didn't notice.
“hey y/n!”
you leaned away from your phone dramatically.
“jesus why are you screaming?”
“sorry! it’s pretty loud in here! i saw you leave! where’d you run off to?”
“oh uh..i went home.”
“what nooo, whyyy?”
you blushed to yourself at the thought that he was upset you weren't there anymore.
“i wasn’t um…feeling too hot. yea, migraine.”
jisung looked at you. expression unreadable as you lied out of your ass.
“ah damn sorry love.”
your breath hitched as you stiffened at the pet name. your face felt hot but you quickly snapped out of it knowing he just meant that as a friend and nothing more. he couldn't possibly. right?
you managed to stutter out a response.
“i-i’m ok really. i just need rest.” you said still red in the face.
“ok well me screaming in your ear probably isn’t helping. ima let you go, sleep well y/n.”
“i will.”
“gnite love.” there it was again. love.
“gnite min..”
you hung up and looked at jisung who seemed…irritated?
“so…”
“so.”
“what was that about then?”
“he-”
“well?”
“he just wanted to know where i was at.”
“really?”
“yea? what about it?”
“nothing. just don't get why you're so convinced he wouldn't like you back. especially if he’s calling to check up.”
“i- what? that’s not-”
“right. right. c’mon y/n, be so forreal. you freaked out at the party. you're trying to distance yourself from him clearly. snd you won’t tell me what’s up so process of elimination or whatever.”
“that's not it.” you said drawing your knees up to your chest.
“then what? oh my god just spit it out.”
“i’m worried he does like me back ji. because that would mean- i’m assuming that would mean he wants me…like that. you know. a-and i’ve never…y’know. and i’m just worried about like. ugh. ok. say he does like-me, like me. then what? i wouldn’t even know….he’s not exactly the “pastor's kid” you know it. i know it. the whole fucking uni practically knows it. he has a reputation…refrences or what have you. whereas i dont even have a fucking resume….”
silence.
you look to ji. embarrassed and scared of his response. why? you aren’t really sure. you’d never had the type of friendship where you talk about sexual escapades and such. and even though you used to like him. you got over that. months ago. or so you thought.
“so…youre a virgin?” god he shouldn't be so turned on by that but he can’t help it.
you nod. looking away again.
“but what about jake?”
“jake was a fucking prick. the whole time-“
“a prick how?” jisung asked worriedly, hoping it wasn’t actually bad bad.
“doesn’t matter. the point is i didn’t give it up to him. thank god. i think? now I’m kinda wishing i had just to get it over with.”
“whoa there no. that’s not something you just ‘get over with’” he said putting the remote down.
“and yea, it does matter so let me ask you again. he was a prick, how?”
“can we not ji?”
“did he hurt you?”
“….”
“y/n?”
“do you remember when…when I came home that one night and-“
you sucked in a breath.
“- my lip was busted….”
the color drained from ji’s face.
“you said you ran into a wall…”
“yea a wall named jake-” you scoffed.
“-i told him i wasn’t y’know ready…and he said it was ok but i could..still go down on him. i didn’t want to though and he wasn’t happy about that so-“
“so he hit you?!” jisung was pissed. sad. disappointed in himself for not knowing what happened.
“yea. but it's fine really. i broke it off the second he did it. i wasn’t gonna stick around for how that was gonna go. believe me.”
“i’m so sorry y/n-nie. i had no idea, sugar.” he said holding your cheek.
you smiled up at him shyly.
sugar.
you couldn't help but smile at that. it’s been a while since he called you that. he didn't even realize he had said it.
“it's fine and it doesn't matter anymore. it was forever ago. the point is. we never did it. ergo i’ve never done it. and I just feel…weird for that. i mean what if im no good or what if i fuck up. i mean most ppl our age have already-“
“so what!?”
“i-“
“listen. if he likes you. he won’t pressure you and he wont’t be upset about your ‘skill level’, i mean i sure as hell wouldn't be.”
you look at him stunned.
“you wouldn't?" It came out small…almost hushed.
“i-i mean..i…” he was stumbling over his words as his ears flushed crimson. he tried pulling his hand away from your face averting his eyes but you stopped him.
“ji?”
he tried clearing his throat but his next words came out gravely. “yea?”
you searched his eyes. he was looking at you like you were the most precious thing on the planet.
“what are you saying?”
“uhh… my point is your first time should feel curious. safe. you shouldn't feel pressured or- or..scared. “ he finishes quietly “or feel like you're doing it for the sake of having done it.”
his thumb ghosts your cheek without him seeming to notice. it makes your breath hitch. no- y/n you're reading into it he doesn't want you like that.
“i’m saying.” he exhales “that it should be with someone who sees you. someone you trust.”
“i trust you jisung…” you say before you can stop yourself.
he looks at you a little stunned now aswell taking in the weight of what you just said.
“when you say you trust me…”
“i mean…would you want to?” you thought you were going to fall through the floor. couldn't make eye contact with him.
“w-with me?” he could’ve sworn you looked like a puppy asking him…well what it sounded like you were asking him.
you forced yourself to look up at him. he was practically frozen in place. not moving. not speaking. you weren’t even sure he was breathing.
“u-uhm never mind. god that was uh stupid sorry. pretend i never said anything.” you went to stand up and just go to your room and cry out of embarrassment.
“wait!” jisung grabbed your hand before you could leave.
“wait. y/n…”
you turned back to face him, tears threatening to spill.
“yes.” He said standing up to meet you where you were.
“wha-“
“yes. i would. of course i would, sugar.”
“ji i-“
“did you mean it? you trust me?”
“yes.” you exhaled quietly.
jisung’s fingers traced up and down your arm slowly making you shiver.
“you sure?” he asked as he stepped closer looking down into your eyes searching for even the smallest glimpse of apprehension. he didn't find any.
“mhm”
“words sugar.”
“i-i’m sure…i’m just nervous.”
“nerves are ok.” he whispered as he went to hold your face in his hands. “can i kiss you?”
you nod. and his lips ghost over yours. not hard or aggressive. just soft. careful.
your head feels like it's just been pumped full of helium. you’re floating.
your lips move together fervently, easily. somehow it feels familiar like coming back to a home you've never actually been in before.
jisung carefully grabs you by the waist pulling you in closer making you gasp.
his hands slide up your back holding you close to him as your hands thread through his hair at the nape of his neck and he groans into you making you respond with a soft whimper.
ji pulls away just a little breathless. checking.
your chest rising and falling erratically. his thumb swipes over your bottom lip.
“okay?”
“okay.” you say. cheeks flushed.
he leans down placing soft kisses down your neck trailing down towards your collarbone making you bite your lip where his thumb had been just a moment ago.
“your room or mine?” he murmured against your neck.
“mine.”
he hoisted you up making you squeal.
“ji oh my god no im too heavy.”
“bullshit.”
you giggled holding onto him and nuzzling into the crook of his neck.
ji set you down on your bed carefully like you were fragile. you looked up at him like he hung the moon with his bare hands.
his fingers slid under your cardigan slowly pushing it off your shoulders as he leaned down to kiss you again.
you gasped into him as heat started pooling in your belly. you tried ignoring it. but he noticed smiling against your lips.
your fingers played with the hem of his shirt.
„you want me to take it off?”
you just nodded, biting your lip and he smiled, kissing you again. he pulled his shirt off slowly, never breaking eye contact with you. your eyes sparkled as they panned over his body. he was gorgeous. sculpted. unreal.
„jesus.”
„what?” he asked as he caressed your cheek.
„n-nothing you're just…really pretty..” you said blushing trying to look away.
„nuh uh thats all you sugar.” your blush deepened as he guided your face to look at him again.
„can i take yours off too?”
„y-yea. yes.” you looked at him shy as he slowly lifted your tank off of you.
„jesus.” he said, parroting your earlier words back to you.
you covered your face, embarrassed. You’d never been so exposed to anyone before.
jisung's hands come up to grab your wrists and pull them down slowly.
“don’t hide baby…youre beautiful.” he kisses you again softly as his hands guide you to lay down.
his hand slides up your waist carefully as he keeps placing kisses all over you. your forehead your temple your lips your jaw trailing down your neck to your collar bone and finally the swell of your breast.
“you’re perfect.” he murmurs against you as he places a kiss on your nipple before lightly sucking on it.
“hnghh. oh god” you mewl out as his tongue lightly circles the little bud.
he looks up to see you already wrecked and flushed with your bottom lip pinned between your teeth. he can't help but smile at how cute and sensitive you are under him.
jisung shifts to kiss and suck on your other nipple making you gasp at the sensation. your abandoned nipple hardening under the cold air.
his hand trailed up your body to lightly pinch your other nipple rolling it between his fingers.
your hips buck up into his as you let out a soft moan hand flying to your mouth in shock.
“sorry.”
“don’t apologize baby, let me hear you, you sound so pretty.” you feel your panties dampen from the praise making your thighs rub together as ji keeps licking and sucking at your chest.
his hands trail down to the waist band of your sweats and he looks back up at you.
“can i?” you nod giving him permission to remove your pants.
“lift for me.” you do. jisung slides your pants all the way down past your ankles leaving you in nothing but your soaked panties.
you look up at him as he traces small circles on your hip. and this time you move. you pull him down towards you into a kiss, more desperate this time. his tongue asks for entrance and you part your lips wider granting him access. your tongues dance together making you gush. you feel like you're in a dream that's too good to be true.
when jisung pulls away breathless he just looks at you. he takes in the blush of your cheeks and the want in your eyes and he feels himself twitch in his pants. how can this be real? you're here with him, under him and flushed and needy and perfect.
“ji?”
“mhm?”
“are we ok still?”
“y-yea. yes. all good you’re just…so beautiful like this. it’s killing me.”
you can't help but giggle and squirm at his praise again.
“you do. you really do.” stars practically gleam in his eyes as he takes you in. just admiring the art in front of him.
“do you want to keep going?”
“please.” that kills him. he captures your lips in his again. more practiced this time quickly picking up on what makes you squirm.
he peppers kisses all over your body making you writhe with need until he reaches where you've anticipated his presence most.
jisung stops for a second and looks up at you.
“can i take these off?”
you look down at him with anticipation, your lip caught in your teeth again and nod with a soft whine.
his fingers slip into the waistband of your panties and you lift for him again without being asked this time.
a string of arousal stretches between your heat and your soaked panties as he removes them.
he lets out a breath, almost shocked at how ready you already are.
“god you’re so wet…I haven't even touched you yet. is this all for me baby?”
you flush crimson again but not breaking eye contact with him.
“mhm.” you respond shyly.
his hands rub your thighs tenderly as he lets himself giggle a little.
“you’re so cute y/n jesus.”
“stopp” you whined in response but not seriously. you liked it. loved it. he didn’t make you feel silly at all. if anything you’ve never felt more loved.
“open for me love ok?” he said as his hands kept rubbing your thighs.
and you did. legs falling open letting him see all of you dripping and ready. god you were so beautiful he thought he died and went to heaven.
finally falling to his knees in front of you he kissed the inside of both of your thighs lightly nipping and sucking making you whine for him again.
and finally, finally you feel his mouth on you. he licked a slow stripe up your slit making you gasp. he smiled against you, at your reaction. holding your thighs open he wrapped his lips around your swollen clit making you moan.
“hnghh oh god ji!”
your hands flew to his head gripping his hair. not hard just grounding.
his tongue lightly circled your sensitive bud making your head fall back into the pillows.
“you taste so good..better than i could’ve imagined.” he said between licks and kisses and it only made you wetter.
his hand trails up to your throbbing cunt and he presses a finger against your entrance not pushing in just yet but teasing just enough as he slides it up and down making you whine and clench around nothing.
he sucks again and again until you're a whining moaning mess underneath him.
“jiiii hgnhh i-i” you mewl out.
“what do you need baby hmm?” he says pulling away but continuing to tease your hole with his fingers.
you whimper again trying to grind down onto his fingers and turning your head away embarrassed.
“oh? is this what you want? you want my fingers hmm?” as he pushes in just a little.
you nod a little too eager eyebrows knitted together.
“yeahh thats what you want sugar. i know, i know im gonna give it to you righttt noww.” he lets his fingers sink all the way in making you cry out.
“ooohhh f-fuu-“
“yea? that feels good?”
“y-yes yesyesyesyesyes don’t s-stop hah.”
his lips return to your throbbing clit and he curls his fingers searching for that little spongey spot inside you.
you're a mess. moaning and squirming as his fingers and lips play with your pussy. devoureing you like youre his last meal. and when he finds it you see stars.
“ji-jisung!!”
he groans into you at the sound of his name on your lips.
“oh god oh god jisung i-i think i- “
he only sucks harder at that.
“jisung! hah oh my god!”
your thighs try to close around his head as your orgasm washes over you and the sheets but he holds your legs open as he continues licking you through it.
fingers massaging your insides with a squelch as your juices flow out of you like a tidal wave.
when you finally come down he kisses your clit softly making you jolt with a soft whine from sensitivity.
he slowly crawls up to meet you leaving kisses all over your belly and joins his lips with yours again as you tremble from the after shocks.
“you did so good, baby.” he murmured into your hair. “you sound like an angel when you cum for me.” you tried to hide your face with your hands but he didnt let you.
“no no let me see that pretty fucked out face sugar.” he brushes your hair stuck to you with sweat away from your face and kisses you again and you hear him unbuckle his belt and unzip his jeans. “you want more hmm? you want my cock?”
“yes sungie…please.” you say breathless
he groans into you as he pulls his pants off and slots himself in between your legs grinding his clothed cock against your core making you whine again.
“ji…?”
“yes sugar? what is it?”
“b-be gentle p-please?”
he searches your flushed face laced with worry and smiles as he strokes your face.
“always. ill go slow ok?”
“o-ok.”
he pulls his boxers off releasing his already hard cock leaking with pre-cum and strokes himself a few times.
your eyes go wide as you take in the sight. he's beautiful. you didn't know a dick could be so pretty…but he’s big. bigger than you expected.
he watches you watch him and he kisses your forehead.
“dont worry, i’ll take care of you. if you say stop we stop. i promise.” he whispers into your hair
you nod.
“if i say stop you stop?” you repeat looking up at him eyes full.
“naturally, sugar.”
“ok.”
he lowers himself right in between your legs and slides his cock up and down your slit coating himself in your previous orgasm. the head of his cock catching on your already sensitive clit making you whimper.
lining himself up to your entrance he looks you in the eyes to check one more time.
“you ready?”
“im ready.”
“ok biiiggg stretch.” he pushes past your entrance very slowly giving you just an inch and your head spins as if falls back into the pillow with a soft mewl.
“you’re ok suge youre ok” he assures you as he slides in and out of you not yet giving you everything.
“hnghh jii youre soo b-big h-hurts.” you whine.
“i know baby youll feel better in a second. you can do it.” he says kissing your cheek.
you shake your head “n-no hurts good hurts s-so good hahh.” the stretch of him inside you burned in the best way.
“oh yea? you like that?”
“mhmm” you mewled.
“fuckk ji feels s’good hnghh i want more ji gimme more pleasepleasepleaseplease”
he had to hold him self back from fucking you silly. hearing you beg for more of him.
he sunk into you a little deeper making you moan out his name panting like a puppy.
you both stilled as ji let you get used to the size of him.
“you ok baby?”
“y- hnghh yes.”
ji leaned down to kiss you again making you buck your hips up against him as he sank into you deeper.
you couldn't hold back your soft sounds as he stretched you open.
“you’re doing so good f’me baby. soo good taking everything like a good girl.” “you feel s’good around my cock squeezing me so tight.”
you moaned at his praise making his cock throb inside of you.
“almost there ok? you still with me?”
“mhm. i’m here.”
“good girl, just a little more.” he sank the rest of the way into you burying himself to the hilt and he groaned. his own head falling back in pleasure.
his head fell forward to rest against yours as you both breathed each other in. once you got used to him you spoke.
“fuck me ji…please.”
he pulled out of you almost all the way before sinking back into you slowly with a loud shlick.
“hnghhh fuck.” you cried as your head fell back into the pillows, eyes screwing shut.
“christ you feel so good baby, shit.” jisung said groaning as he started thrusting into you over and over again.
every single one of your nerves felt like it was on fire as he fucked himself into your throbbing pussy.
your jaw fell open and you turned your head away embarrassed at the thought of him seeing your fucked out expression.
“nuh uh.” he said grabbing your chin and making you look at him. “let me see you baby look at me when i fuck you, you’re so pretty like this.”
you whined as he crashed his lips into yours again and started fucking you faster.
“god this pussy is so perfect. you’re perfect y/n god look at you taking my cock so well.”
“jiii hnghhh fuckkk you feel so good d-dont stop don’t stop” you cried arching into him.
“yea? you like that? you like being so full of me?”
“yesyesyesyesyes sungie god. s’full s’good hah”
“yeaa there you go there you go. so beautiful.”
you could already feel the coil tightening deep in your belly again as he fucked you sensless. you clenched around his cock making him groan loudly.
“f-fuck baby d-dont clench like that or ill cum already fuckkk”
“i c-can’t help it, you feel so good inside me sungie feels so goodd.”
jisungs thrusts became sloppy as his own orgasm approached.
his thumb reached down to play with your clit making you moan louder than you have all night.
“ji oh my god fuckk hah t-too much! i c-cant!”
“yes you can baby. you can take it.”
he continued thrusting into you again as you became a blubbering mess under him and your legs started to shake.
“f-fuck ji gonna cum! i-i” your eyes rolled back into your head as the coil wound tighter and tighter inside you.
“christ me too. fuck. w-where do you w-“
“inside me. fuck hah cum inside me ji please. f-fill me up pleasepleaseplease.”
“oh my god youre a dream fuck yes ill fill you up. ill fill you up so good baby girl. give you everything.”
“yessss fuckkk.” a few tears fell from the intensity of his cock hitting all the right spots inside of you.
jisung pressed lightly on your lower stomach making your orgasm wash over you as you shook under him. your fucked out expression bringing on his own release.
he fell forward onto you with a loud groan as his orgasm hit him, hips stuttering as all his muscles tensed up. his cock shooting ropes of cum deep inside you only making your orgasm even more inense.
you lay there underneath him panting as he propped himself up above you kissing you passionately again as your fingers played with his hair.
pulling away just slightly he said “you did so good for me sugar. so good.”
you both stayed there like that holding eachother for what could've been minutes or hours. you didnt really know. all you knew was that your bestfriend just rocked your world and mingi was barely an after thought.
when jisung finally pulled out you whined at the loss of him. “i know baby i know its ok.” he cooed massaging your thighs. “let me clean you up ok? ill be right back.”
ji got up to go into your bathroom and you heard the water run for just a minute. he came back with a warm wash cloth. “open for me again sugar yea?”
he carefully wiped you down making you hiss from sensitivity. “shhh shh i know i got you.” he tossed the wash cloth aside before crawling back into bed with you and holding you close. pulling the covers over you both he kissed you on the forehead then again on your lips.
“you ok suge?”
“mmm im good.” you said with a content smile. “ so good.”
you both fell asleep just like that holding each other and you knew from that day on that things would be different in a way you never expected.
-by Nyx💋
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