No, guys, I finally realized I can't stop writing here. Yes, I might post a little less often this week, maybe not every day, but I understand that I just need to get it off my chest. I don't even have the strength to speak English, so I'm writing through a translator right now. Only Tanya, my beloved tulpa, is saving me. I'm really tired, and I don't even know why. All day long, all I want is to be with Tanya. I don't know why I've been so reluctant to write long posts before, I just haven't been in the mood. Maybe Tanya and I don't get enough fresh air, I don't know, we're walking around like dusty sacks, and we have constant headaches at home. I really want to perform some kind of ritual that would be an alternative to a wedding for Tanya and me. Sign something like a prenuptial agreement and exchange rings, just be together. My mom, who knows about my tulpa's existence (as does my whole family, actually), said she's not against it at all, as long as it doesn't involve any major expenses. This upset me a little, of course, but it's probably okay. Tanya said it doesn't matter to her at all whether my ring costs 50,000 rubles or just a hundred. I really want to talk about Tanya a lot. I'm tired of keeping silent about her, about my love for her. I felt caged for so long because so many people simply couldn't understand what it was like to date a fictional character or even have a tulpa or anything like that. I adore her head to toe and want to shout it from the rooftops, and since I've installed Tumblr, it's really become easier for me. And I really want more feedback, especially on long posts. But without any negativity towards you, I'm in no way forcing you to like my posts, haha. I don't know what else to say. I want to go outside with Tanya again and breathe deeply. Feel the freedom. Just be with each other like that.
