#tw bpd vent

[thevo1dosphere]

[devoteddeer]

Tw: talk of psychosis, bpd abuse, bpd trauma, so on.

Everyone wants to romanticize bpd until they realize it isn’t ’Haha silly yandere illness!!’ Or ‘Beautiful princess disorder!! ❤️❤️’ and it’s in fact, terrible.

Crying and being stuck in a loop of self hatred because you managed to make the one person you care about so deeply it genuinely pains you to know you made them upset. (You ruined it. You ruined it. YOU ALWAYS RUIN IT.)

Getting stressed out from numerous ‘normal’ daily inconveniences you start having stressed induced psychosis (The bugs, the bugs crawling under your skin. They’re in your skin..)

Being stuck and reliant on substances because being on them is the only time you feel like a normal, functioning human being.

Reactive abuse. Not being the perfect victim. Hurting yourself first so drastically because if you do it, no one else can.

But right. This is a great disorder which people want to have.

[thevo1dosphere]

i don’t think i’ll ever be capable of existing in a human society

[watchyourbuck]

this might be tmi and def personal but today I got diagnosed with bpd and im feeling very vulnerable. ik a diagnosis is always good and is something to build on, but im scared ☹️ it’s been a hard month

[thevo1dosphere]

the term “BPDemon” needs to fucking die im so tired of being compared to the literal devil just because i have a disorder

[wolfensongs]

Ughh I hate this mental funk/ depression I’m in— it’s made crawling back from this split so hard .. I legit just have no energy for barely anything even my irl stuff it’s like I’m stuck behind a wall of numbness that is also increasing my boredom but doing anything sounds too hard .. I have no creativity but also I have to much of it .