#tw: sa

[johnwinstons]

The Pitt 2.08 | 2:00 P.M.

[weardes]

Blood in, blood out

[plantauntea]

I think this scene in particular fucked me up and made me cry when I watched Episode 13. Let me tell you why.

For context: Mister tells Amo that they should do their usual “Ritual”, said ritual being rape and sexual assault. Amo then says, “Amo’s heart beats fast whenever she does the rituals. It makes it hard to breathe. It hurts.” Mister, being the goddamn vile motherfucker he was, lied to Amo and said that the feelings she had were actually ‘love’ and that she was ‘in love with him.’ Which then led to the dreaded ‘crayon scene’.

Now, I’ve seen some comments on social media saying,

- “Oh, well, the flowers mean that she actually enjoyed what Mister did to her! She’s still attached to him!”

(No, she did not enjoy it. To even suggest that she did makes me want to check your search history. The flowers, in my opinion, are signs of Amo trying to reimagine her innocence or romanticize what was happening in order to cope, but it failed miserably.)

- “If Amo really hated Mister, then how come she said that Mister was a ‘great first love’ and that ‘she’ll never forget him’ when she smelled the boots?”

(You need to remember, this poor girl went through so much in one day. She snapped and killed her abuser, was given boots that were her ‘missing pieces’, and saw ‘Angels’ for the first time. Plus, we can all CLEARLY tell that it was a flashback from MONTHS AGO. Hell, even near the end of the episode Amo says, “Becoming human made Amo understand some things she never understood. Like how what Mister was doing to her wasn’t really love.” She realized, after months of being alone, that Mister was never her first love and that he was a terrible man that did terrible things to her. She doesn’t want that anymore.)

- “She smiled when Mister was done with her after the crayon scene! So the creators are using her as a fanservice/gooner character!”

(Again, Amo was telling herself a lie that what she’s feeling is ‘love’ and not ‘fear’. When she said, “So this is what love is. I’m so happy to know this feeling.” It’s like a ‘fake it til you make it’ situation. Deep down, this is one of the most terrifying things that ever happened to her, and she knows this well. But out of keeping her sanity, SHE HAD TO TELL HERSELF THIS IS WHAT LOVE IS, NOT CONTINUOUS SEXUAL ASSAULT. Also, when she talks to herself in the third person, she is pretending that she is a character. Becuase if she referred to herself in the first person and realized the gravity of her abuse, it would not go well for her. So she had to, out of survival and coping with her trauma.)

Let’s be so honest: In that scene that made me cry, Amo was NOT falling in love with Mister.

SHE WAS SCARED.

She was afraid of Mister, and she always was afraid of him.

In this moment; she realized that this is the only form of ‘love’ she will ever get in her life and, with fear and despair in her heart, forced herself to accept it.

When she leans her head down and says, “Ok.”, that’s not out of love, that’s out of terror. It’s out of coercion. But because Amo has never known was true love felt like (whether romantic, platonic, or family), and because she was trapped with Mister since she was a child (I’m gonna assume since 6 to 15 years old, so a total of 9 years…maybe even more), this is the only kind of “love” she ever known.

According to her during that time, to know love is to know fear and pain.

So Amo turned off all of her true emotions, became numb, went along with Mister’s sick fantasies for survival, and referred to herself in the third person in order to separate herself from her body to cope and not emotionally combust.

I’m glad she killed that fucker.

[flygutzz]

Hey fly I saw that post about you blocking someone for making cuphead a predator. While I think it's nice you didnt out them (probably sadly for fear of harassment on both sides)if your okay with it can you explain what they make cuphead do?

idk what else to say man, they depicted him as a rapist

it may come as a shock but i feel uncomfortable with seeing that and didnt wanna look at it.

[threewaywithdelusion]

I wish more people liked Canon Nicky. Like yeah, he sucks a little bit, but that’s the point.

All the Foxes suck a little bit. They’re not perfect victims, they use slurs, they do bad things to each other. Seth’s a selfish homophobic asshole, but he saves Allison. Kevin’s a one-track-minded alcoholic who hears his teammate died and wonders how the team will keep playing, but he also gives Andrew a chance before anyone else does. Wymack’s lucky they didn’t have cancel culture in 2006, because some of the things he says are horrifically not PC. But he’s not some perfect savior of a coach. He’s a guy with a terrible past who decided to make it his life’s mission to help troubled kids. And if he gets it wrong sometime, it’s because absolutely no one in these books is 100% mentally well and they’re definitely not coming across mental health tips on TikTok or reading books about how to do better.

Nicky is terrible at boundaries and consent. It’s probably a trauma response to his upbringing and conversion therapy, but that doesn’t make it okay. He makes creepy comments all the time and he assaults Neil in Columbia.

I’m not excusing any of that. But Nicky isn’t only that, and that’s why he’s interesting.

He’s the one who texts Neil a million times a day, until Neil stops looking frightened every time his phone beeps. He gave up Erik and Germany to raise two angry teenagers who never reciprocated his affection. He had a relatively normal upbringing (religious trauma aside) and then got thrown into dealing with the twins and having to navigate 1) Andrew locking Aaron in the bathroom to get clean (is he being a good or bad guardian by letting that happen?) 2) working two jobs to pay for the house 3) Andrew being arrested 4) Andrew being put on meds that made him manic and unreliable 5) Aaron’s homophobia 6) Andrew’s violent threats and so much more.

When exactly did he find out Andrew had killed Tilda? Which of the twins told him? And did he ever wonder if Andrew would kill his newest guardian if Nicky messed up?

Nicky is incredibly selfless, brave, and patient. And he’s also pushy, kinda creepy, and incapable of understanding boundaries. He’s both. And I wish the fandom wouldn’t sanitise him, because I think that’s part of the point.

[willel]

Until I decide to make a gifset, OR if someone else wants to take up the challenge:

In both cases where Vecna attempts to or touches El's face, she turns away.

In Will's case, I don't think it's a case of he "doesn't", I think he literally CAN'T turn away.

But anyway. It would make a pretty cool gifset.

[mandate-transgenderism]

get you a trans girl who is visibly glowing after you rape her 🥰

[nataliescatorccioapologist]

I don’t think we, or even the show itself, really sit with the implications of this line enough. And I don’t think Natalie lets herself sit with it either. I really wonder how much more Natalie has actually gone through but refuses to let herself think about or acknowledge as trauma.