#twcutting

[lotus-gamer]

TW SELF HARM

Long story short, i did it again..

Im weak and can't handle much so it was just about two liitle knicks, they look like like pin pricks

Im so sorry.. you were busy and i didn't want to burden you..

Im a failure.. and absolutely one..

If anyone finds out they'll be mad at me..

Im mad at me..

I just hope you don't get mad at me too..

I'm so sorry..

[auraxh-blog]

× don’t read, trigger warning in case anyone wants to be a shit head and read ×

Roses are red Violets are blue My legs are now the color of roses Just like my blade.

Roses are red Violets are blue I’ll make every last victim of mine, Beautiful as violets and roses.

Roses are red Violets are blue They are raising a killer, That will make them become roses and violets.

Roses are red Violets are blue There is no going back, The damage is already done.

[calridley]

Honestly

I’ve been thinking about death and suicide a disproportionate amount and I’ve been getting drunk alone almost every night or getting high or smoking cigarettes until my fingertips are numb from the 2am cold and I’ve been texting the suicide hotlines to calm myself down and to stop cutting which i also do daily and I take kpins to go to sleep at night, every night.

I am so at a loss for what to do anymore. I’m upset with myself that I’m still upset about my ex, if I’m being honest. It’s petty and stupid and I whine too much. I’ve been in therapy since I was 15 (I’m 22) and its helping less and less every session I go. Im on medication finally and it helps but it also makes me hyper focused and therefore i focus in on my pain and am abusing substances to cope with my now heightened emotions.

I’m rambling.

but pretty much everyday I’m scared of myself. I know the coping mechanisms, the good and the bad. I know I should be exercising or meditating or moving on or dating other people (which i try to, hasnt been workin out lol) and i try to better myself and focus on the positive and use the law of attraction and whatever. but really im just a depressed shell of a human and i am digging myself deeper into this hole.

i feel really really really selfish for even writing this. im upset 24/7. i need help but i have reached out to every avenue possible. where am i supposed to turn now? this is exhausting.

[auraxh-blog]

Tonight is probably gonna be my last night. Tonight I'm gonna end it Tonight is the last time you'll ever see me. I'll take a bunch of pills, because I don't like being in pain when I die, trust me, I've tried painful stuff and it never even worked. You'll think I'm doing it for attention, but the truth is, I'm serious. I have my plan and I'm gonna follow through it. Nothing will stop me. I'll be spending my last moments with you guys until I'm finally alone and the only one awake in the house I have many pills that I was given for headaches and period cramps and to settle my stomach down I'm gonna sallow every last one. I'm also gonna admit that I've been cutting for a while now. The entire 2015 year, I've been cutting but I've never said a word about it till now. And to be honest.. I haven't used a knife, I've been using my nails, that's why I keep biting them so they can stay sharp and I can do it. I'm sorry I really am, but.. This is what I want. Forget about joining the Military and becoming a therapist. Forget going to the rifle team meeting And I'm sorry.

[youtubeandpuns]

Today, August 10th marks exactly one month that I have stopped cutting. On July 10, 2015 I gave up and tried to take my own life, I proved unsuccessful and I'm glad because I'm standing here one month clean. I never thought I'd be able to do that and I'm really proud of myself right now. Sorry if this was rambly but I'm very proud of myself rn, and there's no one else I can share this with